i am scared.... ><

in the shop rite now.. my colleageu having a bad now, she has not been talking since morning and her face is reallllyyy loonnnngggg fyi... i am so scared rite now.. i mean i dun like this kind of situation and i dunno what made her so the unhappy now.. its like i am living with a time bomb tht ready to explode anytime... just hope i dun trigger her emotion only.. its weird, if she argue with her bf usually she will pull her long face but not till the point till she doesnt want to talk and just trying to get herself busy.. i tell u... it must have been some big big big argue... is she having cold war? i dunno la... ahahahahah i am so scared now... God, take away her anger please.... *big wet eyes

aniwei... my loving leader, shirley boon is getting married real soon.. i am so excited for them... hehehe.. i mean, i love weddings and this time is doubly special.. coz the bride is someone so special in my heart... wah! i cant wait for her big day... well when is mine? hahahaha seriously.... i think hor... i think la.... i only think ok..... think only la ok... hehehe.. i think i really really cant wait to walk down the aisle myself.. when will my turn come? hehehe... i hope i dun freak the guys out la... but hey i mean... its my little dream mah hahahahaha....

well..... i think rite now i really dun feel like talking to my mom la... its like.. whenever she calls me she always nag me.. ugh i have enough of it already... please some please... help me would ya? haha get me a job with high pay... hahahaha

seriously i am scared now... huhuhu... i hope after i have my lunch her mood is better... ish!

oh ya.. i bought 4 DVDs yesterday, which according to felix, i shouldnt buy anymore coz i have been watching DVDs too much... i cant believe his memory is so good, the last time i tell him i wanna buy DVD is like looooooooooong looooooooooong time ago!
they always say girls remember but now i think guys remember too! or mb he is abnormal afterall.. hahahahahaha jk jk jk..

ermm i bought slumdog millionaire.. i cant wait to watch it... hehe

well oh well... i just came to realization how much relationship can affect one's life.. seriously... when we are single, all we need to care is just oruselves and tht what others do is not really matter to us.. as a matter of fact, we cant even be more careless... sometimes single ppl is more happy, more easy going and more relax.. however............................................................ when we got attached.... its like... u know... u r worrying when your other half din call u, or when your other half has gone somewhere without telling you... u r worrying when you make ur other half up set... and the list goes on... esp when you and your other half is not matured enough to start a relationship at the first place...

sometimes attached ppl can get emotional, can get so obsessive and possesive... u r overly jealous.. and become irrational... (hey, its true ok at some point... ) its like.. u stalk ur other half's facebook account, checking out all her/his contacts and get mad when you found someone more pretty or handsome than you... wahahahaha.. i mean.. yeah yeah u r in a relationship but doesnt mean ur other half cant have friends of the opposite sex...

then... u begin to stalk his/her phone, reading through their messages like u r some sort of cencorship department... i tell u... how ridicilous can it get? it can get reaaalllllyyyy silly... (its again true based on true account of my life)

so... better check la if u r having a healthy relationship or not... dont la just because u r in a relationship then u trying to be a dictator over ur other half life.. give a break would ya?

oh and oh... and.. when u and ur other half having big fight.. please please please dun bring ur friends go down as well ok.. like pulling a very longggg face... as if the world is just yours.. i mean.. hey... i know you r angry (i dun care whether u have the right to angry or not) but dont spoilt the atmosphere around ok? a smile wouldnt hurt you....

ok la... i better stop writing bfore i rant again... hahahaha if u realize it.. i actaually getting very scared again.. hahaha she is still still still having a very long faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... seriously she needs face lift i guess... (its a joke) hahaha how lame?????

signig off~~

Muttons At Midnight - Valentines Day version

please GOd...

dont entertaint the evil thought u have... get rid of it right away... i tell u the more u entertaint it.. the stronger it gets.. thts what happened to me last nite... i shudder to the tought of it... forgive me Lord! i am wrongggg.. very wrong...

anihow.. i keeping my finger cross.. i need a job... LOrd i pray hard.. please give me a job.. give the job at KLIA... i ask in Jesus name... amen!

Lord.. i am so sorry for yesterday nite and the nite bfore yesterday... i am so sorry.. its beyond word...

i repent. period.

signing off...

please for me... i need the job.. pray i get the job at KLIA.. i pray for Your favor Lord...

against all odd...

i just came back from sunway pyramid watched curious case of benjamin button... to be honest... its a good movie.. it has great story however it got too boring in the middle of the movie because it is just too draggy in the middle of the movie.. however, brad pitt's charm has saved the day... ha ha ha....

i cant remember when was the last time i catch brad pitt's movie...

ok back to the main point, today i am not talking bout brad pitt's hot bod... we gonna talk bout benjamin button...

i think all his life he kinda lost, he din know why he was born that way, and how his life treating him... when he was young, he was trapped in old body and people din understand him... and when he grows old (his body getting younger and he appears hot)he found that he cant stay together with the only woman he ever trully loves... he cant even see his daughter growing old as he knows that his body will continue getting younger as time goes by...

but however this movie has shown me that in the world there are still people with good heart... benjamin's mama is the best example..even when she has her own daughter, she still loves benjamin as the way it was before...

i reckon u guys to watch it but get ready to feel a bit sleepy hehe... :)

well... i think, now i am as lost as benjamin button... darn, at least he has a button factory to support him... me? hahahaha... i have Jesus! yes! i win!

do keep me in ur prayer.. i need prayer than anything else... tho mph voucher would help... i bought the worst book in my lifetime .. or mb i was too tired whenever i read the book...

so how was ur valentine's day? i spend mine working till 10.30pm like tht, got stuck in the parking lot and almost bang another car on my way out from 1u... u tell me? is it good or what? hehehe...

oh and oh... who has anti virus?

go and watch slumdog millionaire kay? its good movie.. i am going to watch it too next week...

and i might be going back to indo for like 2 weeks next month... keeping my fingers cross... hopefully i got a job la!

where am i suppose to start? or end? or go? or walk? or stand?

ish.... i dunno whether i am sad or not... hahahahahhahha but well.. my life has been quite a roller coaster itself...

my life not improving... my family not around me... stuck in the crossroad of my life... not knowing where to go.... not being able to get assurance... i think i just get more confused... :( i need someone to cry with.....sigh....

i know so emo rite? but pardon me la.... seriously.. i laugh my day away... but inside i am so the confuse till the fact that i found it hard to breathe at nite and i kinda runaway now... :(

sigh.... le sigh.... God... i just need to assurance..... i seriously confuse.... sigh..... mommy.... mommy.... i wanna cry!

*slap slap*

pull yourself together yunny!

the misterious case of Puteri Lilin's love life

ah i hate packing! i hate to unpack! i hate anything deals with moving house! but the irony is that i've been moving house countless of times in the span of 4 years time... darn! why did i do that? why why why?

and just so u know, my life is not any better too.. with all the weird guys gravitated towards me.. i mean, i dunno they like me or just stare at me because i am that cute.. if they like me, come and give me some free food la... dun just stare at me then smile eerie-ly that freak me out.... see i dunno whats going on in their mind... i never know and i dun wanna know... hehe...

ok i will list to u the weird guys around me (there are 4 so far):
1. the weird uncle from the D'Quartz crystal shop
he is this uncle in his early 30s... whenever he passes by my shop, he will stare at us (i say us because i dunno and i am in denial, tho my colleagues say he looks at me)... and sometimes (well, most of the times) he smiles eerie-ly.... while looking at us... scary... he's not ugly or what, but the way he looks at us made him so freaky and scares me out to my very core... and..... i am wondering, does he brush his teeth daily? ahahah get wht i mean?


2. the myanmar guy from the magz shop where i buy my drinks and papers daily
ok.... here is another guy.... he doesnt speak good BM but at least i could understand him la... at first hor, i din notice it la till my colleague told me bout the way he looks at girls.... then i dunno when it started, he began to try to communicate to me.... wait... flirt i might say since thts what he's been doing (tho i deemed him failed big time in flirting 101 lesson)... he will like dun want to give my drinks or papers, he will looks at me and smile (again eerie-ly) when i browse through the magz, and he will talk to me (ask me where i come from, ask me to always come to find him and so on and so on)....i got so scared because whenever i come he always stares at me... even when i come with my friend.. got one day, when i come, me and my friend was looking at the magz section, then he looked at us (again us because i am in denial) and then purposely arranging the magz at the section where we read for free... ish, from so many rack why he choose ours? and he must stand so close to us meh??? i get very uncomfortable! see see see.....aaahhh no!!!!!!!!!!111

3. the guard no. 1 from ridzuan where i stay (no. 1 because there is no. 2)
ok.... see, i got into argument with this guard earlier because i lost my access card and he wouldnt let me in... (but of course i won la)... so since then he got to know my existance and he is quite nice to me (never find problem with me and always let me in later on) and i also being treated well, i always thank him and flash him my USD1 Mil smile.... i always come back home past 10pm due to my work and he, most of the times, works at night shift so the chance i bump to him is high enough... so one fine night, i came back home late, he was there, so i just smile at him la... then when i about to enter the lift, his friend came and asked from my phone number... i was shocked, he said it is for his friend and i knw which one already.... he kept on asking and wouldnt let me in to the lift.. so i gave in lo... and he called me... i din picked up... first i scared.. second,what to talk to? i mean.... seriously.... what to talk to? then he sms-es me asked me why dont want to pick up his calls..... from then on... i got scared to enter to my own condominium... ish... why oh why??


4. guard no. 2 from ridzuan
this is new one lo... today he kept on ask me things and smile eerie-ly to me... i dun understand what he was saying as his BM is so awful... goodness..... want to flirt also learn some proper BM or english or as matter of fact the language that i understand la... ish .. i blame guard no. 1 for this to happen!

ok so thats my pathetic love life.. .hahahahahaha... i am so sad... please come la my prince of charming that ride in BMW 6 series...

ermmm... aniwei.... its either i perasan or all the 4 guys i mentioned are pure got nothing to do but to disturb me... or they really think i am cute hahahah what say u?

aniwei....... tomorrow is cap go meh! its the last day of cny...

and.... i am FAT now hahaha...

i just got my fringe trimmed.... ehehehe

and.... what is ur plan for valentine? mine is to sleep.. yeah thts it...

oh and oh... by day i am Puteri Lilin now for the fact that i melt under extreme heat... hehe

signing off~~

why is that so?

my mom, my aunt and my 3rd aunt are at my home karaoke-ing...

ok ok ok......

today i have serious issue to talk to.. before i forget it altogether..

ok... as u all know, as the world know, i have this colleague that of the other race of mine... so it happens to me that she lead a free-modernize-lifestyle... i, of course, have no objection or whatsover as i used to lead a life like her... pretty much la...

so whats wrong then? well.. .as i opened my eyes big enough (well my eyes are big already) and my ears wide enough.. to my not so surprise mind, i found out tht many of her friends and many of my newly found friend have almost the same lifestyle... and also, i learn that many ppl from the middle class and lower class (i am referring to financial status here) actually stuck in this kind of lifestyle (please emphasize the word "stuck" i used here)..

why i stay stuck? ermmm....at first i tot they are to blame as to choose to lead tht kind of lifestyle..but then again, as i think deep enough, i realize some of them actually stuck in tht kind of situation..they were born in a family that cant support them a good education background and they live in a community where that kind of lifestyle is practiced... hence, they grown up thinking that that is the correct lifestyle or that is they should live their lives.

they, obviously, have the right to choose to life a better (like what a lot of charities done, which some of them are plain liars... i will go into tht matters some other time).. we must start with education to the young ones... the young ones that still can be molded so that the next generation of these people can have breakthrough in their lives...

education is still the way out of poverty.. not only poverty in finance but also poverty in knowledge...

so friends, before we judge the unfortunate ones, why dont we take a second and think again...

this is just my 2cents... different ppl have different ways of seeing the world and its problem... but we need to unite and make the world a better place to stay... wah why i sound so like an activist?

nitez~~