tiredd... tiredd...

i am all tired...

hehe....

and yeah..i am captivated still...

captivated still...

captivated still... i think this is my theme for mean while..

should i be sad? knowing the truth... the truth i know now is painful one..

sigh.. i can only smile knowing it.. yet... my heart still captivated... my eyes still captivated...

it is weird how i can just locate you.. it is weird how one simple gestures from you can me smile whole day... it is weird how one smile from you can make me smile too...

i think thats what i have for you...

i think i just in love...

i told myself i will let go, but its harder to do than said..

*slap slap*

study ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-everything is nothing if i ain't got you- ah.. tht's true...

captivated still...

captivated still... i am captivated...

bad hair days again...

i want to meet Paris!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, can i? somehow... i am captivated still...

its very scattered around...

heya... i am back...

ok.. today its not so good at work... how could we lost RM100 for my name's sake? how? ugh! there it goes my first salary... boo!! i dunno how to tell my supervisor? i feel so lausy. .can even keep track on the cash... ugh! what have i done in monash for 4 years?

oh yeah,... btw.. today.. my colleague's bf called her at around 9pm asked her to leave early just like that when he knew tht she was working... i mean... what kind of attitude is tht? whr is their sense of responsibility? if it is urgent then its diff la.. but but but.. this is... kind of ridiculous... it is! sigh...
just because i am a part-timer they thought can bully me is it? hahaha.. well i din feel angry.. just that i feel a bit weird la.. i mean working = commitment mah...

and i found the most boring job ever.. at first i always think that security guard is the most boring job.. their job is to sit around making sure nothing happened..but then if nothing really happened it can be really bored for them eh? but now i know something more boring than security guard... it's the toilet's keeper (i dunno the exact name la).. they are just there and sit there... i dun mean to degrade them.. to be honest when i see them sitting in the rest room.. i feel helpless for them.. but what can i do?

my bro once told me, "its not that they dont want to change, but they are stuck where they are.."

at first i was kinda disagree but... now that i think again.. mb its true..some of them.. they are in the age that they cant do much bout their lives.. .sad huh?

ah.. exam is here but i just unmotivated to study rite now... seriously ... i dun like studying now... i want to earn my own money!!

my parents is coming this christmas.. oh yeah! it means shopping and eating good food... yummy.. hehehehe i gonna plan where to bring them.. hahaha... mb i should learn how to drive up to genting.. hehe.. its kinda scary...

ok la i am tired..tomorrow gotta study..

signing off~~

my favorite drink

hokay... you know... when there is no connection i have a lot of things i wanna to write but then there actually is, i dunno what to write

so today i gonna tell you all my favorite drink:

1. COCA COLA.....
coke and i go way back when i was in college.. i remember i like this swimmer when i was in college and he is so so so handsome.. he loves coke (till now) and so i also developed love towards coke that is so deeply till now that if coke doesnt affect my health i would drink it like water...

2. ICED TEA (or the malaysian called it TEH O' AIS)
that's the only drink i order when i go to mamak stalls... hehehe.. lest i got bored and i ordered barley ais... (trying to be healthy)... hehehe..

3. NESTEA ICED LEMON TEA ZERO
oh yeah, i found this heavenly drink when i was in CANADA.. i love it..despite the fact my mom keep on nag me on how much its not good for my body, i still buy it whenever i go to a market... i mean, how much is the chance i can go back to CANADA just to get this drink? i swear, when my bro come back for holidays, i gonna made him buy me 1 dozen of it.. i hope he doesnt got detained for it...

4. POKKA GREEN TEA
yesh.. another great drink... my family loves it too... hehehe i tricked my mom to buy a lot a lot of it during CNY by telling her it was to serve the guest but when in fact i drank most of it...

5. STARBUCKS CARAMEL MACHIATO
yummilicious... nice, one shot of espresso with low fat milk topped with caramel.. not to sweet and keep me awake... thts a bonus tho its kinda expensive

6. COFFEE BEAN ULTIMATE ICED COFFEE BLENDED
great drink... i still can bite the coffee bean literally.. how cool is that?

7. FUZHOK BARLEY (BARLEY WITH BEANCURD)
ermmm.. i know its very the traditional.. but its good u know... hehehe...

8. WATER/H2O
yesh... the ultimate drink.. ehheheheehehhe i drink like a bull... hahah..:P


there ladies and gentlemen, what i drink occasionally and daily... hahahaha... next is my favorite person on earth... hahahahaha

i think favorite person is so not fun.. so i gonna make my least favorite person i knw since my day in HS and college.. there was the time when i hate ppl and think i am the most high one.. hahaha :P

oh ya.. and i've been meaning to write this to whoever person behind dawnwayang... ahem ahem *clears throat*

"oh puh-lease... you are just jealous no matter what u r saying on ur blog... if u r not jealous and trying to get revenge or in your term "defending the real innocent one".. go and reveal urself and confront her in the face straight (tho it would be impossible given that dawn in NYU now)"

ah.. relieve is what i feel it is... *phew*

signing off~~

i am that annoying

hokay.. hehe will a short update..

today as i work, i met this loving couple, mind you, their not some romantic type one..but from their conversation, i can see that the hubby is one loving hubby and dad, giving opinion when his wife shops.. i mean, how many guys do that? the wife also is a very sweet woman..asking in sweet and loving voice for her hubby opinion.. and the son... cute!!! hahaha..

well, i drove back home just now and i became a very annoying driver.. behind me was this myvi tailing me so close.. and i never like ppl tail me so close! whats ur prob? ur wife giving birth is it? usually i will just let the car behind me to pass by me by letting them go, but tonite, i think i was just cranky bcoz i am that tired and annoying.. so i purposely drive faster to make sure i always ahead of that stupid myvi (my myvi not stupid)... and... and.. when i take to the left lane as i have to take my exit turning, the myvi also have to take left exit... lo and behold he/she tried to cut me but then i dunno which evil spirit came to me.. i honked the car and cut him back.. i tell u... i am that annoying.. sorry.. i can be that kiasu!

well thts for today

oh and i bought a blouse.. me loving it..

nitez...

could i?

can i be happy for something that i know its not meant to be mine?

my heart beats have not stop... it still beating hard when i see you.. but this time it is different, it beats with pain within it... with aches accompany it..

my eyes try to avoid you.. yet my mind keeps searching for you....

let me cry tonite so that tomorrow i will not cry again...