let's sing

aaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

who is the greatest?

here i am... sitting in front of my computer... aaahhhh.. since i graduated from highschool, computer has been my best friend tho im not so expert with it... well here i am uttering something nonsense...

*grin*

ok ok tht's not the whole point...

today as i was in the lift (just came back from bible study with shirley) i saw this family (a mom, a daughter and a lil boy)....

story goes like this -----> the lil boy was so excited over the sticker he got (new one) and he kept on asking his sis which one she likes the most... the sis couldnt be more careless... the lil boy kept on asking enthusiastic... so the sis just simply point one of the stickers.. then the lil boy asked again where she wants to put it up... so the sis this time never even bother to answer him back... so the mommy in the end told the lil boy that the sis doesnt want any and tht he and keep the whole stickers for himself... (story must end here coz the lift reach fourth floor already)

ok u dont get my point?

see.... when i saw it i began to think... the lil boy really loves the sis..and since he was small enough and doesnt know how to express it in adult's way so he wants to share the things he likes with the sis... but we adult, being adult (sometime annoying one) dont take small kid seriously, some of us even see them as annoying....

at that moment i can feel how disappointed the lil boy was... he just wants to share the sticker (the thing he likes) with the one he loves....

-------> it strike me.. i sometimes do that to my sis too... ya i sometime ignore her when she wants to love me, when she wants to care for me...

we, adult, tend to take small kid for granted.. we never really pay attention on what they say... yes they may be naive, innocence, dont know a lot of things we adult have to deal with..but their love is sincere, their smile is pure and their heart is as white as the snow... when they love someone they mean it, when they want to share something with ppl they really mean it...

-----> "Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greates in the Kingdom of Heaven. whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me." (Matt 17:26-27).

friends, let really learn to love like little child, let really have faith like little child... bring ourselves in loving ppl as deep as how little child love...

as young as them, God loves them... so what more us? dont think that they dont know how to love... they know how to love ppl better than us because their hearts are pure... :)

i have it or i dont have it?

i got it right or i got it wrong?

someone answer me plz... *roar*

if only... if only....

*thinking*

hahahaha lately been feeling a mixture of feelings... pretending to be stupid isnt easy after all.... to really faking not knowing something that i obviously know isnt easy... but what could i do but to pretend?

input -----> output.......

consideration:

input ------> negative or positive
output-----> what kind of output the opposite party expect
error ------> error to be zero, how?
discrepancy ----> how many percent??
tolerancy ------ > how many percent min??

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh if life just not so complex?? hahahahaha...

give me some input and give me what u expect to be the output.... can u?

*enjoy the friendship*

isnt it great?

::: my wishes list :::
ipod nano (black) 2Gb
topshop jacket
oakley sun glass
stephen hawking's book
cell group members' life changed
cell group multiply
altec lansing xt1 speaker
go to taiwan & japan
my myvi to arrive now
MY PARTNER OF LIFE FROM GOD

this is my wish list i wrote somewhere during last year september.. guess what????? i read back some of it has came true... not all but some.. .God is amazing...

which has came true?? well, im going to japan this coming june or july, i got my myvi on oct (fast isnt it?), i got my stephen hawking's books (i got 3 indeed), i began to see my member's life changed,... i believe the rest shall come to pass for God is good and He is faithful God!

being predictable or being unpredictable???


and i choose to be unpredictable infront of u coz of your mystery...

and i choose to be predictable infront of u coz of your openess....

the more we tolerate compromiser, the more we become compromiser without we knowing it.

that's it for today... no long explanation for the phrase itself has explained it well...

------> im missing my baby... baby how r u??

FYI, my baby is a she.... its a she!!! dun mistaken my baby ok??? she's cute, fast, faithful car!!! though i always bang here and there but she never fail me... baby, you rock!!

i love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. thanks for the spaghetti and thank u you for the tupperwear hehe.... you guys rock my life!!!

Tinggikan diri-Mu, Mengatasi Langit

Kebesaran-Mu Tuhan mengatasi bumi

Kemulian-Mu Tuhan mengatasi bumi

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i am standing tall with Him

i am soaring high on His shoulder

i see beyond the land because of His eyes

i hear beyond the brokenhearted because of His Spirit

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genuine relationship is not about what we can take but it is about what we can give... wow!!!! i really amazed.... at nite when i tot this deeply, it brought back my past... i used to relate with others to gain their acknowledgment and to gain security from them, but along the way i found myself with nothing except for more insecurity and thirst for more of acknowledgement...

God is just so amazing!!!! again He revealed something that is so classic yet powderfull!!!

im so loved!!!!! im so pampered!!!!

p.s thanks for bearing my "ren xing"-ness and all my naggings....

counting down to 7th of june.....

*sweat*

it's week 8... buck up guys!!!!! monashians gonna face weeks of hell soon... days of staying up late, days of drinking cups of coffee, days of chocking the book down our throat and days of eating maggie mee as dinner...

i wanna finish faster!!!!

well today morning my insurance claim came out already.. baby!!! you're one lucky baby!!! i miss you baby... cant stop thinking bout you baby!!! *jeng* *jeng* -----> dun think too much eh guys..my baby = my car... hahahahahahaha...

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enough bout me

i know it's a bit late.. but i wanna to say my deepest condolences to families and friends of 32 victims of V Tech tragedy. May God be with you all.

kick ass!!!

yesterday was a long day....

got into car accident.... thank God for greg :) he help me a lot and really calm me down.. i was in the edge of crying already.. why all these happens at the same time? but i believe God's grace is made sufficient for me.. :) the Lord is good..

well at nite, after i finished made the police report and had my dinner.. i felt my whole body was weak.. no energy... i felt like beaten up gao gao...

i felt like crying but i couldnt..
i felt hopeless but i didnt
i felt helpless but i wasnt

ahhh i kept on reminding myself not to be emotional... i know and i know that i am attacked...

ooosshhhhh God is good.... i wake up the next day felt much much more better...

so now what i need to do is:

KICK THE DEVIL'S BUTT GAO GAO!!! YEAH!!!

proclaiming His word!!!

He is my shepherd and His grace is made sufficient for me!!!!!!


to my dearest baby : baby, im sorry that i made u suffer.. rest well for this 3 weeks ya,.. i know u will come back stronger, cuter and faster.... gonna miss you baby.... my baby i'll take care of u better next time... i know u r at a good hand...

well... i am now officially missing my baby.....

::my wish list::

cash cash cash

cg multiplication

logitech speaker

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friendship

what does it mean to be a close friend?

think bout it... to be a close friend for me not only to share everything, not only to be together thru thick and thin.. for me, being a close friend is also to know when to pull myself off my friend's life.. to give my friend a space to breath, a space to be alone and think...

human needs time to be alone, to think and to rest... to be alone is not to feel blue, to feel negative about one's self, but rather to think and to always reminds one's self about one's identity and who one is in the eyes of one's Creator (in this context is God).

if u see in bible, even Jesus, has His own quality time where He separated Himself from His disciples... why? He needs to pray, He needs to have quiet time. Only with this He will be able to gain new visions, new revelations and new strength. not only Him, but later on even His disciples such as John, Peter and Paul....

what am i trying to say here?

what i want to say is..

as a friend, close friend, remember to respect ur friend's privacy. Don't feel hurt when your friend choose to keep certain matters for him/herself... nothing wrong if between clsoe friends exist secret... it's okay.... :)

i cried bfore because my dearest friend keep her problem to herself... but now i learn that it is her right and her decision.. she had reason for doing tht... what could i say? i learn to just be there and ever ready when she needs my help... my prayer will always be with her.. as long as i know that i am her friend it is more than enough for me...

friendship is a journey, enjoy it...

i lack of sleep.. for me it's a torture... :(

a story of a girl and a kitten..

one sunday morning, a girl woke up... she was forcing herself to wake up and to do her tasks... it was early..the sun just got up... she didnt feel like going out, she was tired and stress... she went down to the swimming pool.... sat by the pool... suddenly a kitten came, it was so cute and black in colour..

the girl couldnt be more ignorant.. she didnt care at all.. but then, the kitten came near her feet and just slept there..she was so touched, she felt ticklish so she had no choice but to remove her feet, but the kitten looked at her and then draw near to her feet again and lay its head on her feet...

it really brighten her morning... she smiled and she played with the kitten..

she really thank God to send her an adorable kitten to cheer her up.. God is just so amazing...

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a friend of mine asked me, "how to make a person really happy?"

can anyone give a finite answer?

there is no finite answer...

take an example..

for me, a sms from a person i love would make me smile, a kitten could brigthen my day.... when i found the soft toy that i like in midvalley, it made me happy for the whole nite... when one of my member offered to help me, i was so happy and couldnt stop telling anybody bout it...

some ppl might say im a very simple person... yes i am indeed, i cant deny it...

that is me... so if u ask me how to make me happy.. then the answer will be simple..but all these things might not make other person as happy as i am...

in general, girls happy when they know someone is care for them... when someone give them something out of his/her sincerity... :) but lemme emphasize it again, it is in general, not all girls!!

guys???? ermmmm im not sure since im not a guy myself... but from my experience... a guy can be happy when he is being praised for what he has done for us... a guy can be happy when give him surprise out of the blue... well a surprise that over used is nothing... hahahahaha... a guy can be happy when we cook for him... (well me myself i never done it..eh got lar one time, i made burger for my ex)

but again it is just my experiences..it doesnt valid for everyguy... hahahahahhahaha...

ok.. now i need to take my nap...

muah

hehe...

a new beginning

early in the morning...

yesterday as i was about to sleep (i was in half awake- half sleeping state) something supernatural happened...

God spoke to me... amazingly He showed me how abudantly He bless me now and in the future... like the water in the sea, powerful and constantly flowing... isnt it great? I could see that all that i desire and all His promises will come to pass soon... thank God...

decision vs. emotion
many ppl mixed up the two of them....

i learn that in everything that we do is all about decision we made... even in the simplest thing like to love... ppl always associate love with emotion, but now i began to see that to love is a decision to made.. if we love out of our emotional feeling, we wouldnt have good ending... there will be no strong committment... when things go well, we would be able to love but when things go wrong, we wouldnt be able to stand strong.... but when we love because we decide to love, there would be a strong base of committment....

our journey with God also not emotional journey..but a journey based on our desicion...the day we lifted up our hands and said, "God here i am." is the day when we decide to walk with him, to committ to Him thru thick and thin. if it is just emotional feeling, we wouldnt be able to go thru all the tribulations. we would only expect to receive from God...

decide to do the right thing at the right time... and we will find our life a better one...


p.s. i would to thank you for waking me up today...