how hard it is to move house?
seriously i hate moving house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how i loath my night...

wht a day...

i lost the shop key, hence resulting in me cant close the shop and got stuck alone (ALONE) in 1U till about 11.15pm... it was scary ok.. imagine u r a girl alone in a closed shopping mall.. its kinda dark...

then... when i need help urgently, my friend's phone was out of coverage area, then another one was in midvalley watching movie and my boss, from all the ppl, din answer my call till about 1.5 hours later...

then, i got scolded! ok my fault coz i left the shop like tht (meaning i din lock it) but i tell u... i was so scared and its dark and i am girl alone.. i only have two options: the shop is save but my life at risk or the shop at risk but my life is save.. of course i choose the latter one... if my shop got break in i still can pay back but then if i got kidnapped or murdered or raped... who can give my mom another daugther just like me?... sigh.. what make me more demotivated to work is that my boss din try to understand my situation... i can see tht she only concerns bout her shop... sigh... i know la but still.. i am ur worker and u should show some concern for me somemore i am a freaking GIRL! and its not tht i din do anythign bout it.. i tried my best.. haih i dunno la.. i just feel wht i do is not worth it...

then... on my way back home i miss the turning to subang and went till shah alam to make a U-turn...

once i reach home, and eating my dinner (dinner not supper), my boss called me ask me to come to 1U to collect keys from her.. i mean actually she can open the door tomorrow.. but noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... she asked me to come! sigh boss is boss la....

then again i kena marah.. i tell u i dreading for tomorrow work! when i tired i am lazy but this time round i really no mood.. i keep on reminding myself that i am doing this for Jesus....

i think no use for me to justify myself... they will never understand how scared i am alone in the mall at nite... they will never understand how i am so scared of my safety and also the safety of the shop... and in the end i still apologize to them... tho i have all the right to keep silent..

sigh... i know i am justifying myself... i just dunno how to make myself so motivated to work again... sigh...

aniwei.. i just thank my dear esther and melinda for accompanying me to 1U and also... eng kim for trying to help me.. and gerald also for listening to all my rants.. *big wet eyes

well... well... i guess something to learn be careful and take good care of the KEYS and stay calm to find solution...

23 things about Yunny

23 things about Yunny:

1. i has my first stitches when i was about 3-4 years old... i fell down at theme park and a sharp glass cut deep into my chin.. i kinda remember it was a bloody afternoon for me... hahaha...

2. i had my first car accident when i was.. (no, the car accident nt the first).. when i was 3 years old... yesh! a car banged me.... i dunno why tht memory still very fresh in my mind till now... and i wasnt cry! and the amazing part is tht i din get any major injury... just a little scratch.. btw i was 3 years old and under weight (according to my pedetrician), i flew for about 3 -4 metres... but ta da... i am still in one piece.. hahaha... thank God

3. i used to be very fat when i was in junior high.. my pants size was 31 or 32... go imagine urself and imagine at ur own risk ok...

4. i am scared of dog.... yesh.... i cant read their mind and it scares me...

5. i am very proud of my teeth.. very very very proud... considering i din put much effort to take care of it... still i have a very nice set of teeth even better than my families all add up together and they brush their teeth religiously (u know like brushing their teeth for every hour like tht)... but dun get me wrong ok.. i still brush my teeth every single day i life just tht not so passion bout it la...

6. i cant sleep without reading first... i can read anything! just anything! give me a bottle of ketchup and i can read its ingredients just to make me sleep..

7. i cant differentiate left and right very well.. not cant la, i know what is left and what is right..but hor.. i got confused and i need a longer time to tell which one is one compare to normal person la... i have plenty of embrassing stories in this area but i too shy la to share.. just kindly email me hehehe..

8. when i sleep, my feet must not be covered by the blanket.. else i cant sleep...

9. i am very fussy about my hair.. i am very very detail when it comes to my hair... and only one person so far can do my hair.. God forbid another person cut my hair.. i think thts one of the reason why i dun want to leave msia...

10. ppl say i am cute.. which i think i am now.. hahahaha what say u?

11. i dun drink milk but i eat cheese and yoghurt

12. i get cranky when i dun get enough sleep... and dun mess with me when i am cranky... last time i always have this PMS strike.. and once u press the wrong button.. u r dead meat...

13. i love soft toys.... i am 25 now and yet i still love soft toys.... hehehehe... i have a big luggage at my home in indo just to keep all my soft toys.. the only one i still looking for is original garfield soft toy.. i want the big size one... hahah i saw once few years back........................ but i din buy it now i regret!

14. i always wish i am 5cm shorter than my current height... i dun like being tall! not tht i am tall la.. i still short but not short enough for my standard... hahahaha... i am serious...

15. i am music idiot... seriously.. when it comes to music... i have zero knowledge and i just dun have the talent... but i love singing... i kinda proud with my voice tho i always sing out of tunes... hehe..

16. i dated two of my lecturers bfore.. for a very brief period of time.. hahaha... but they go after me first ok... hahahahaha... now tht i think of it.. i think old guys have something with me... why oh why? is it because i am cute? hahaha

17. my first kiss is when i was 16 years old... hahahahaha it was so sweet and my whole face turned red...

18. got one time, my friends and i went to our lecture house and we shouted his name then we left.. i dunno why we did tht... we love him u know.. hahaha he is the best lecturer i ever had...

19. seriously... i dunno wht else.. let me think..... oh..... i know.... i love to window shop at home appliances section... all the plates, bowls, spoons, cooker, etc etc just fascinate me...

20. i hate make up... i always turn like clown whenever i put on make up on big occassion... serously.... even for my big bro wedding.. i was so ugly... i feel so old when i put make up...

21. i am not talented at playing games.. any games... the easiest level of mario bros game took me like 4-5 times of playing before completing the level... hence u will never see me playing games.. except when i am too bored

22. i hate when ppl adjust the seats on my car.... esp the driver and passenger seat.. they have to be in line one ok....

23. i scared of lizard... other than dog this is the 2nd animal i scared of... ermm i used to have bad dreams bout lizard when i was in high school.. i can kill cocroaches but one tiny lizard can make me numb... i hate lizard... ugh! so geli...

there 23 things bout me hahahahah i am just bored...

polygami what?

poligamy what? i tell u... i think i still cant accept the whole concept of polygami... i mean... it doesnt make anysense to me and it never will...

any woman and man in their right mint wouldnt want their love to be shared... come on??? i never can accept the fact tht my husband sleeping with another woman tho its legal by law... i cant! i will lose the most basic element of every relationship : TRUST....

if my man claim to love me, then he wouldnt have the idea to marry another woman, would he?

and come on.... the saying tht as long as u can be fair to all ur wives in term of love and finance then its alright to have many wives... i say this is the most absurd theory... why?
1. u cant and never cant to give ur love equally coz you are not GOd!

cheh, sure u will lean forward to either one of ur wives or husbands (i am speaking of polygami in context for both man and woman)...

even a mother will favour one of his children more than another... but still a mother will love all her children la.. just tht sure she has one tht is her favourite among all!

so... see, a mothers's love can be said is the most unconditional one... so hor... if a mother can be a bit bias, what more us????? so.. hor... polygami is stupid idea for me! if u are a hardcore pro-polygami, i tell u... ask urself this: why would u consider polygami at first? isnt it because u know tht u can love both of ur partners equally or just because u just lust for something new? and u justify ur own answer.. i am nobody to judge anyone...

well.... for me... marriage is something sacred... only can be shared by 2 ppl...

so.. i am saying now to polygami! period.

i am scared.... ><

in the shop rite now.. my colleageu having a bad now, she has not been talking since morning and her face is reallllyyy loonnnngggg fyi... i am so scared rite now.. i mean i dun like this kind of situation and i dunno what made her so the unhappy now.. its like i am living with a time bomb tht ready to explode anytime... just hope i dun trigger her emotion only.. its weird, if she argue with her bf usually she will pull her long face but not till the point till she doesnt want to talk and just trying to get herself busy.. i tell u... it must have been some big big big argue... is she having cold war? i dunno la... ahahahahah i am so scared now... God, take away her anger please.... *big wet eyes

aniwei... my loving leader, shirley boon is getting married real soon.. i am so excited for them... hehehe.. i mean, i love weddings and this time is doubly special.. coz the bride is someone so special in my heart... wah! i cant wait for her big day... well when is mine? hahahaha seriously.... i think hor... i think la.... i only think ok..... think only la ok... hehehe.. i think i really really cant wait to walk down the aisle myself.. when will my turn come? hehehe... i hope i dun freak the guys out la... but hey i mean... its my little dream mah hahahahaha....

well..... i think rite now i really dun feel like talking to my mom la... its like.. whenever she calls me she always nag me.. ugh i have enough of it already... please some please... help me would ya? haha get me a job with high pay... hahahaha

seriously i am scared now... huhuhu... i hope after i have my lunch her mood is better... ish!

oh ya.. i bought 4 DVDs yesterday, which according to felix, i shouldnt buy anymore coz i have been watching DVDs too much... i cant believe his memory is so good, the last time i tell him i wanna buy DVD is like looooooooooong looooooooooong time ago!
they always say girls remember but now i think guys remember too! or mb he is abnormal afterall.. hahahahahaha jk jk jk..

ermm i bought slumdog millionaire.. i cant wait to watch it... hehe

well oh well... i just came to realization how much relationship can affect one's life.. seriously... when we are single, all we need to care is just oruselves and tht what others do is not really matter to us.. as a matter of fact, we cant even be more careless... sometimes single ppl is more happy, more easy going and more relax.. however............................................................ when we got attached.... its like... u know... u r worrying when your other half din call u, or when your other half has gone somewhere without telling you... u r worrying when you make ur other half up set... and the list goes on... esp when you and your other half is not matured enough to start a relationship at the first place...

sometimes attached ppl can get emotional, can get so obsessive and possesive... u r overly jealous.. and become irrational... (hey, its true ok at some point... ) its like.. u stalk ur other half's facebook account, checking out all her/his contacts and get mad when you found someone more pretty or handsome than you... wahahahaha.. i mean.. yeah yeah u r in a relationship but doesnt mean ur other half cant have friends of the opposite sex...

then... u begin to stalk his/her phone, reading through their messages like u r some sort of cencorship department... i tell u... how ridicilous can it get? it can get reaaalllllyyyy silly... (its again true based on true account of my life)

so... better check la if u r having a healthy relationship or not... dont la just because u r in a relationship then u trying to be a dictator over ur other half life.. give a break would ya?

oh and oh... and.. when u and ur other half having big fight.. please please please dun bring ur friends go down as well ok.. like pulling a very longggg face... as if the world is just yours.. i mean.. hey... i know you r angry (i dun care whether u have the right to angry or not) but dont spoilt the atmosphere around ok? a smile wouldnt hurt you....

ok la... i better stop writing bfore i rant again... hahahaha if u realize it.. i actaually getting very scared again.. hahaha she is still still still having a very long faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... seriously she needs face lift i guess... (its a joke) hahaha how lame?????

signig off~~

Muttons At Midnight - Valentines Day version

please GOd...

dont entertaint the evil thought u have... get rid of it right away... i tell u the more u entertaint it.. the stronger it gets.. thts what happened to me last nite... i shudder to the tought of it... forgive me Lord! i am wrongggg.. very wrong...

anihow.. i keeping my finger cross.. i need a job... LOrd i pray hard.. please give me a job.. give the job at KLIA... i ask in Jesus name... amen!

Lord.. i am so sorry for yesterday nite and the nite bfore yesterday... i am so sorry.. its beyond word...

i repent. period.

signing off...

please for me... i need the job.. pray i get the job at KLIA.. i pray for Your favor Lord...

against all odd...

i just came back from sunway pyramid watched curious case of benjamin button... to be honest... its a good movie.. it has great story however it got too boring in the middle of the movie because it is just too draggy in the middle of the movie.. however, brad pitt's charm has saved the day... ha ha ha....

i cant remember when was the last time i catch brad pitt's movie...

ok back to the main point, today i am not talking bout brad pitt's hot bod... we gonna talk bout benjamin button...

i think all his life he kinda lost, he din know why he was born that way, and how his life treating him... when he was young, he was trapped in old body and people din understand him... and when he grows old (his body getting younger and he appears hot)he found that he cant stay together with the only woman he ever trully loves... he cant even see his daughter growing old as he knows that his body will continue getting younger as time goes by...

but however this movie has shown me that in the world there are still people with good heart... benjamin's mama is the best example..even when she has her own daughter, she still loves benjamin as the way it was before...

i reckon u guys to watch it but get ready to feel a bit sleepy hehe... :)

well... i think, now i am as lost as benjamin button... darn, at least he has a button factory to support him... me? hahahaha... i have Jesus! yes! i win!

do keep me in ur prayer.. i need prayer than anything else... tho mph voucher would help... i bought the worst book in my lifetime .. or mb i was too tired whenever i read the book...

so how was ur valentine's day? i spend mine working till 10.30pm like tht, got stuck in the parking lot and almost bang another car on my way out from 1u... u tell me? is it good or what? hehehe...

oh and oh... who has anti virus?

go and watch slumdog millionaire kay? its good movie.. i am going to watch it too next week...

and i might be going back to indo for like 2 weeks next month... keeping my fingers cross... hopefully i got a job la!

where am i suppose to start? or end? or go? or walk? or stand?

ish.... i dunno whether i am sad or not... hahahahahhahha but well.. my life has been quite a roller coaster itself...

my life not improving... my family not around me... stuck in the crossroad of my life... not knowing where to go.... not being able to get assurance... i think i just get more confused... :( i need someone to cry with.....sigh....

i know so emo rite? but pardon me la.... seriously.. i laugh my day away... but inside i am so the confuse till the fact that i found it hard to breathe at nite and i kinda runaway now... :(

sigh.... le sigh.... God... i just need to assurance..... i seriously confuse.... sigh..... mommy.... mommy.... i wanna cry!

*slap slap*

pull yourself together yunny!

the misterious case of Puteri Lilin's love life

ah i hate packing! i hate to unpack! i hate anything deals with moving house! but the irony is that i've been moving house countless of times in the span of 4 years time... darn! why did i do that? why why why?

and just so u know, my life is not any better too.. with all the weird guys gravitated towards me.. i mean, i dunno they like me or just stare at me because i am that cute.. if they like me, come and give me some free food la... dun just stare at me then smile eerie-ly that freak me out.... see i dunno whats going on in their mind... i never know and i dun wanna know... hehe...

ok i will list to u the weird guys around me (there are 4 so far):
1. the weird uncle from the D'Quartz crystal shop
he is this uncle in his early 30s... whenever he passes by my shop, he will stare at us (i say us because i dunno and i am in denial, tho my colleagues say he looks at me)... and sometimes (well, most of the times) he smiles eerie-ly.... while looking at us... scary... he's not ugly or what, but the way he looks at us made him so freaky and scares me out to my very core... and..... i am wondering, does he brush his teeth daily? ahahah get wht i mean?


2. the myanmar guy from the magz shop where i buy my drinks and papers daily
ok.... here is another guy.... he doesnt speak good BM but at least i could understand him la... at first hor, i din notice it la till my colleague told me bout the way he looks at girls.... then i dunno when it started, he began to try to communicate to me.... wait... flirt i might say since thts what he's been doing (tho i deemed him failed big time in flirting 101 lesson)... he will like dun want to give my drinks or papers, he will looks at me and smile (again eerie-ly) when i browse through the magz, and he will talk to me (ask me where i come from, ask me to always come to find him and so on and so on)....i got so scared because whenever i come he always stares at me... even when i come with my friend.. got one day, when i come, me and my friend was looking at the magz section, then he looked at us (again us because i am in denial) and then purposely arranging the magz at the section where we read for free... ish, from so many rack why he choose ours? and he must stand so close to us meh??? i get very uncomfortable! see see see.....aaahhh no!!!!!!!!!!111

3. the guard no. 1 from ridzuan where i stay (no. 1 because there is no. 2)
ok.... see, i got into argument with this guard earlier because i lost my access card and he wouldnt let me in... (but of course i won la)... so since then he got to know my existance and he is quite nice to me (never find problem with me and always let me in later on) and i also being treated well, i always thank him and flash him my USD1 Mil smile.... i always come back home past 10pm due to my work and he, most of the times, works at night shift so the chance i bump to him is high enough... so one fine night, i came back home late, he was there, so i just smile at him la... then when i about to enter the lift, his friend came and asked from my phone number... i was shocked, he said it is for his friend and i knw which one already.... he kept on asking and wouldnt let me in to the lift.. so i gave in lo... and he called me... i din picked up... first i scared.. second,what to talk to? i mean.... seriously.... what to talk to? then he sms-es me asked me why dont want to pick up his calls..... from then on... i got scared to enter to my own condominium... ish... why oh why??


4. guard no. 2 from ridzuan
this is new one lo... today he kept on ask me things and smile eerie-ly to me... i dun understand what he was saying as his BM is so awful... goodness..... want to flirt also learn some proper BM or english or as matter of fact the language that i understand la... ish .. i blame guard no. 1 for this to happen!

ok so thats my pathetic love life.. .hahahahahaha... i am so sad... please come la my prince of charming that ride in BMW 6 series...

ermmm... aniwei.... its either i perasan or all the 4 guys i mentioned are pure got nothing to do but to disturb me... or they really think i am cute hahahah what say u?

aniwei....... tomorrow is cap go meh! its the last day of cny...

and.... i am FAT now hahaha...

i just got my fringe trimmed.... ehehehe

and.... what is ur plan for valentine? mine is to sleep.. yeah thts it...

oh and oh... by day i am Puteri Lilin now for the fact that i melt under extreme heat... hehe

signing off~~