i told my self... ystd is the last day i cry....

i cry nomore...

i will always smile....

i will not show my weakness again....

i am strong....

falling apart?

been asking eng kim why he has such patience and tolerance..been telling him i need more patience and tolerance....

i dunno is it me or is it God testing me...

my world today seems falling apart today...

to start with, i woke up late...

everything started late...

went to buy spare part but couldnt found it...

started to get panicked and frustated...

cant get thru eng kim coz he left his phone... i was so frustated that i actually cried when i drove...

bought the wrong paint...

worked with uncomfy situation....

trying my best to divert my mind...

trying my best to talk and smile....

i am tired....

i am devastated....

God...... why is it so?

God.... i need You, for with You i am strong...

God.... guard my heart....

i am tired...

stop eating me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so far yet so near...

so near yet not touched...

not touched yet there is feeling...

why is this so?

its mine hahahaha...

ok.. been very emo hor yesterday, sorry peeps...

ok some good stuff and happy post to be updated.. hehe...

hehehe... i know its bit late and bit old... hehe... but better late than never... hehe..

last sat was my bday... indeed this year is totally different...

to begin with, at midnite 12am, esther and bro engkim celebrated it with me... esther gave me a very very very practical present.. i love it... and presented it in such a creative way... hahaha... simply appreciate it... after that... went to mcd to have supper hahaha... yeah no fine dining... hahaha..

then hor, so that is 23rd june at 12am... then the day started... had my cg meeting.. it was filled with joy.. once again, they really bluff me to the max.... they made it like they din prepare anything (just like last year)... then after fin cg, i was rushing to church... when i stepped out from the lift, there they are with my cake.... then sing the bday anthem... hehe.. thanks so much guys...

then at church...... ermm...... this time is usher team turn... well last week was also my last time serving with them... well... again, a lausy drama but again i got cheated... thanks ya... there my 3rd cake hahahaha... ow ya they put the candles wrong... im not 24 lar guys... sad!! hehe..

i was like.. quite bad hahahaha before i blew the candles... i couldnt resist but to say, "ermm.. the candles wrong ler...." then we all burst in laughter hahaa...

allison was saying, "chinese calendar..." hahahaha ya rittee... hahaha..

ok lor... then again..... eng kim insisted that i have to go back home with him...i was not curious at all... he just said he wants to bless me since its my bday ok lor... :) then .... bfore that i went to asia cafe to meet my members and celebrated my bday with them.. hehe...

so.... reach there.. i knew they wont stop till they sabo me.... big or small doesnt matter, i got it then they happy hahahaha...

so.... they do the tradiotinal one... pull the candle from the cake... but the different is..................

THEY PUSHED MY FACE ONTO THE CAKE!!!!!!! YESSHHH CREAM ALL OVER MY FACE!! IT EVEN GONE INTO MY NOSE AND EYES!!! HAHAHAHA.... GOOD GUYS!! U GUYS SEE... NO GOOD ENDING FOR YOU GUYS HAHAHAHA LOVE YA!!

bleah!!! wash my face then go back home after the dinner... yeah on my way back home... i saw another batch of ppl holding cake... i was like... oh no.. not again... why i scared?? coz its jeff and the gank.. they are all crazy ones!! hahaha...

but then again..i got cheated.. they said i perasan, its for delvin and bla bla bla.. i believed coz feli was thre...

so eng kim the master of all... brought me back like as if nothing gonna happened... so i took my bath... waiting for esther... as she came.. there they all... sang the bday anthem song again.. so sweet of them.... this time the cake.... esther baked it.. thanks sis.... :) so sweet... we all had good time eating cake and chit chatting..some secrets are revealed.. and i got some "interview" hahahaha..... haih.. seriously i think next year i must be a good girl during ppl bday hahahaha...

owww.. bfore the nite end... went to allen's place to get my stuff hahahaha... so there again i got cheated... bleah!! got another surprise.. thanks ... im so pai seh..

finally the nite end... i need to go sleep hahaha so halau the ppl back hahahahaha....

bfore i slept... adrian came to pass me cake... hahahaha thanks adrian... :)

sunday come.. lalalalalala.... having my bday dinner at hard rock cafe with shirley and subzone... really happy that they all happy hahahaha .. we all had great time together... share things, again some secrets were revealed hahahahahaha....

but most important is that shirley was happy... :)

subzone bless me with cash..so does eng kim... hahaha.. but his way of giving it to me.. lame lar bro hahahaha... but thanks ya...

so thank God for such wonderful bday... i am so blessed and so loved..

p.s photos will up loaded soon hahaha... bz now ler...

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update:
sure i feel so so so sucky ystd.. the whole day running away, occupying my mind with other things....

but today, as usual, the High S me will make excuses.. not for me but for the other person... saying, "u know,its not his fault, he's trying his best" and some similar excuses to side tht person... can u imagine that??? dunno im crazy, stupid or just way way beyond idiot....

smile... move on.... i cant be bug down by this more than one day..

guess i need more hageen dazs.... ya.... soothe my heart...

smile smile smile...

lausy one...

confusion... dunno what the other person thinking...

expection not meet... i shouldnt have made any of it.... i tot i have learned.. but why i did the same mistake?

dun make any promise when you cant meet it... dun make me wonder....

dun say any words when you dont mean it... dun somehow conquer my heart...

i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

23 is a charm

23rd is a charm? hahahaha...

this year indeed is different....

what i hv??

love

love

love

love

love

love

23 presents from my bestie...

3 cakes

1 bag

cash

prayer

cake on my face

cards

again love

i want to thank:

my dear esther, eng kim, my lovely members, shirley, jasmine, feli, jeff, frieda, dennis, joseph, all usher team, allen, adrian and bla bla bla (if ur name not above kindly contact me)

i really love all of u... muah

ok ok last one i promise.. hehe...

this is connie in pink... aaahhhhhh so sweet......

Connie Again.. hahaha..

ok ok i crazy over her, and its like the second clip... hahaha but she's just so adorable!!!!!!!!!!!

Britain's Got Talent- Connie

this sweet little girl really melt my heart... a-must-see-video *wink*

Britain's Got Talent

Ps. Kevin showed us this clip from youtube.com hehe.. if you interested go to youtube.com and search for "britain's got talent" and click for connie talbot's video...

awww she just 6 years old yet so talented!!! she sang "somewhere over the rainbow" so beautifully... i actually fall in love with her.. she is so sweet and adorable..she has the sweetest smile that can melted anyone who sees it... :)

well, but tht's not the point...

the point is that.... i am amazed on how the crowd so supportive over most of the contestants... wow!!!! nothing more meaningful than their support, isnt it?

wow!!!! we must learn from them.... give support no matter how... most ppl they are more concern bout the final result, but they forget bout the process... :)

i am amazed... this show really encourage me more... we all have talent and gift.. we all unique in our own way.... :)

so guys, be of good courage!!! You guys are the apples of God's eyes...

love ya.... *wink*

come to the Father

though your gift is small

broken heart, broken life,

only He can take

the power of the Word

the power of His blood

everything was done

so you could come

this is just so amazing, to know that i have such loving heavenly Father...

lausy

ermmm lately been continue receiving.... i have not sown anything lately to the ppl around me... i feel kinda weird and kinda selfish... i feel that lately i have just revolved around myself... bleah!! something that i dun like!!!!

sometimes i am just thinking, what could possibly or in what possible way i have hurt ppl... is it my ignorance? is it my words? is it my action?

i am not a person good in expressing my love....

i feel lausy now.....

ermm....

there is this one song that made me tear few days back....

have i really moved on?

i guess i have, but somehow this heartache always there....
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past that i want to regret....

past that i wish i never had...

past that i wish i can erase it...

but everything has been done...

everything has been recorded down...

everything has left foot print....

will i be able to start a new page?

i have fear.....

will i be accepted again?

love covers multitude of sin.........

usher....

the lovely usher team

this is something i want and something i desire.... but when i got the confirmation, i feel sad somehow... i feel a bit resentment...

jas was asking me if i am ready to let go my usher ministry.... ready? i guess i am, my heart now is in technical team, when im in technical team i found what i want to do...

ya... i am now no longer usher... the ministry that has shape me and build me for almost 3 years... thanks for jennifer and felix, the both u really have taught me so much... teach me how to solve problem, how to make decision, how to be firm yet gentle, teach me how to take the ownership and be confident... :) indeed, usher is the path to leadership... :)

thanks to all of you that have been my friends, my companion for these 3 years... u guys are just so fantastic... i still remember when we were just small group and we were still so shy shy and so quiet...

i feel different.... to serve in same church but different area... just so tak biasa....

want to say thanks to jasmine also, my leader my sis and my dearest friend.... you are just so amazing sis, i really really really pray that God will you bring to a higher lever in your walk with Him... :) there are times when i feel apart from you.... but both of us know that we always have that special bond in our friendship... :) sis, i am sorry for the things that i have wronged u...

to all the rest of sat team, i love all of you.. i dunno wht else to say.... well, i am sorry to have leave the usher team without telling u guys... well, but u guys i think can see it also hor... hahahaha... :p

aaahhhh.... i just wont forget all the fun, all the events where we really have to stay up late and be on duty back-to-back... it was tiring, faith stretching... but look at where i am now... now i really appreciated it...

lastly, thanks jennifer for blessing me so much to be in a place where i want to be.... :)

i have been forced to make a list... okay okay here i come.... it's gonna take a while... bleah... and no money is allowed in the list..why? tht's the ultimate thing i need rite now... yesh Cash!!! hahahaha....

ok ok.. here it goes....

::my list::

oakley sunglass

big big bag to put all my stuff (extra-big key chain, wallet, hp, and bible)

big garfield (original and fluffy one)

logitech speaker (with woofer one)

a boyfriend?? hahahaha...

slow cooker

mp3 player... preferably ipod nano black hahaha..

ps3 hahaha...

one year astro subscription

nike shoes

baby tiger

baby polar bear

goldheart purple gold bracelet

drink cooler for my car

new external hdd

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i cant think of anything else liao....

at least i did my homework...

hahahahahahahah..

*wink*

B.O.R.E.D

i am b.o.r.e.d

b = bleah
0 = oh my goodness
r = roar
e = eewwww
d = duh!!!!!!!


wahahahaha...

errrmmm....
if you and you read this...

esther: thanks for the haagenz dazs... munch away!!!

nis: just enjoy and ask God for guidance ya... muah muah!!!!


hehehe....


i am bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my papa

pa:

you are super hero...
you wake up early in the morning,
you warm up your second wife (hint: car),
you nag us for being slow,
just to bring us eat dim sum...

you spend more time with your documents,
you spend more time with your newly bought lcd tv,
you spend more time with your basketball team,
you spend more time driving in that old big car,
but i know you love us....

you bought toyota when i ask you to buy honda,
you bought nokia when i ask you to buy sony ericsson,
you bought char kwetiaoy when i ask you to tiong sim mee,
you bought lcd tv when i tot that is wasting of money,
but you happy i happy...

i still remember when you hugged me when i was crying coz of that stupid clown,
i still remember when you threw away my bicycle coz i was too naughty,
i still remember when you brought us go to hk and being so paranoid that we would lost in hk,
i still remember when you forgot to pick me up from school,
i still remember when you always brought us to KFC and movie every weekend,
i still remember when you were thin and not so rich,
i still remember when you were so impulsive to buy some herbal thingy in thailand and us were trying to stop you,
i still remember when you were angry just because i din want to take picture,
i still remember when you thought you had heart attack but actually it was because u had coffee for the first time,
all these were so normal and decent when it took place, but now i treasured it... it will always be the things between you and me...

pa, a lot of things i have said and done i cant take it back... but i am learning to be a better daughter for you... :)

pa, you are old enough and give me sometimes ya and i will give you your retirement days soon... well, pray harder for me ya so that i can have a very very very rich husband hehe...

pa, for father's day can i have one request? i want a house in malaysia! hehehe... dun have heart attack ar..im just joking..

pa, i love you


from your cuttest daughter,
yunny

bimbo-wanna-be

TOUGH ar today paper... i was practically gone blank for like 15 mins when i saw the paper... i think CY also equally blank as i was hahahaha...i can see his facial expression hahahahaha...

ermmm... ask me and bite me... my TNB bill for this month up to RM600.. what did i do???????????? dont ask me.... i dunno!!!!!! i think TNB hates me hahaha they want me to suffer under the hot wheater of malaysia...

bleah!!!! mb i should just from now on start to use candle for lighting and fan hahahahaha...


meals combination for students:
pan mee + ikan bilis + minced pork + siu yok = best lunch......... i ate like a hungry ghost.. which i memang hungry...[this morning crave for chocolate just rite bfore the exam... ermm, and then last 2 days i dream eating ice cream... (ok, if u read this and u know and u know that u owe me one pin of haagenz dazs, faster move and get me one!!!) --> tis one just additional tots..]

tuna + bread = a very decent breakfast for students in time of exam.. to be honest its not fulfilling at all... i can eat 6 slices of bread at still hungry.... bleah! no wonder i have round tummy.. hahahahaha...

maggie mee = a very decent lunch/dinner/breakfast (circle one) and the one that will shorten ur life span... eat it every now and then or u will feel jelak.. do not try to eat it 3 weeks in a row..i tell u... u will end up like me... u will become delusional, when u see maggie mee u will start seeing ur self in ur own coffin....

mcd = an expensive lunch/dinner and also one cathegory with maggie ---> u die faster... best to have it like 2 times a week, dun try more than that.... trust me u dun want to know the result... kids, u think eating mcd nice???wait and see till u stay far far from your forever-stopping-you-from-going-mcd parents...

chap fan = all time fav dinner / lunch... ok here is the tricky business... how to have a fairly cheap one plate of chap fan?? few tips:recognize the aunties or uncles, get to know the one that very kind and never over charge. hide ur meat under vegie, but if they checked, then too bad lor. if you are super cheapo, just pour a lot a lot of curry chap and take 2 vegie.

all kind of mee (soup or kan lao) = well... moderate lunch or dinner, but tobe honest, u get hungry easily...

porridge = wrong choice of lunch or dinner..... where can fulfill ur stomach?? esp if u r guy that eat like an ogre bwahahahaha....

homemade = this can be cheap, depending on what u cook... if u cook steak, dun come and tell me that homemade lunch or dinner is freaking expensive, i will smack ur head with screw driver then kick u out from my house..... but well, most students dun have the time and the heart to cook...so for girls, get a bf that can cook and willing to do so... and guys, get a girl that can cook lor.... easy.. hahahahaha.....

liquid food = this is a very stupid choice.... hahahahaha... i wont do that and don do tht esp during exam... u will suffer from low blood pressure, low carb rate and low sugar intake... it will cause blurness, mood swing, hibernation, and watery eyes...

end of thesis...


[how i wish there is a topic on the effect of PID controller on crapping-thology for my fourth year thesis]

p.s im not a bimbo ya... hahahahahahhaa... i sound like one.....

i am so sleepy... :( moooo~~~

update:

1. woke up at 4.30am to fetch audrey from pudu bus station... hehe the bus came late from the scheduled time... so waited for almost 1 hour... hahaha... audrey is leaving soon.. very sad... :( she has been a good sister, a great friend, and a patient listener for me... gonna miss her lots... miss her like crazy...

2. this week service was awesome.. Pastor really preached the word of season for me... the word of God really blow my mind off... it took me sometime bfore i really responded to pastor's challenge in my life... :)

3. being rebuked is a pain process.... being disciplined is a tough process..im undergoing it... but i will persevere for God.. :)

4. ermm certain things in my life need to be let go in order for me to grow... so been asking God what do i need to let go? hehe...

5. ermm.... been asking myself, why do ppl set standard over certain circumstances or over a person? some ppl i found them to be too extreme, when he/she/it cant meet their standard, they begin to judge, worst still they begin to critize... i find it very hard to take...

well..just some random thoughts of mine.. hahaha...

study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

being a public figure

being a public figure...

there is always pro and cons being public figure... be it actress, singer, actor, politician or just even famous blogger...

pro.. of course u r the main attraction wherever u go, when u need sponsor u can easily get it... and u r rich..well at least above average... hahaha but today i wont talk bout the pro side.. why? coz everybody knows it..... some even tot being famous is good.. hahaha... am i rite?

well today let's discuss about the cons...

ok... i only want to talk bout one point... why public figure always being judge and critized when they do wrong? just because they are public figures? just because they are famous? yes indeed they are, but bear in mind that they are just merely human, the same like you and me here... aite?

for example, the hottest issue, at least for now, PM Badawi re-married again... well what's wrong with it? why some ppl or even the media make a big fuss over it?

ok ok..he's a PM and he should give a good example.. he's the role model of malaysia.. but then...

as i know, his late wife pass away in year of 2005... again i repeat, PASS AWAY!!!!!

SO????

so... does he not allow to remarry again? just because he's a PM???? then i will say, he has a very pathetic life.... and malaysians are the most narrow minded ppl... well mb this thing also going on in other countries...

however, he's not being unfaithful to his wife rite? he's not cheating what??? unless he getting married again while he is still married to his wife then u can stoned him to death if u free, or bang him with ur 4-wheel drive if u happened to see him walk by the road side... hahaha... jk jk...

if you cant seem to accept it... then think this way..if it is happen to just some ordinary guy, say a chicken rice stall uncle somewhere near ur place, would u jugde him like u judge PM? no.... aite?

well, different case for Bill Clinton i might say... why? coz he was considered of having affair... tht's totally wrong k? even if my neighbour do that, well i will judge him too.. but again, im learning not to judge ppl, for whatever i use to judge ppl, the same it will be used to judge me...

so..not siding PM badawi or whoever... i just want to share what i think... :)

peace out....

at least respect our leader and try to understand his position before we make such a big fuss over it... ok ok????

yahoo or google?

confuse?

cant seem to decide which one?

what if u can have both at the same time?

http://gahooyoogle.com

have fun! :)

ngiak ngiak...

today morning i woke up with amazement in my heart... the moon is so bright tht shine thru my window... it soothe my heart, it soothe my mood... :) somehow and somewhat, moonlite remind me of someone... :)

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exam fever

*blink*

ermm suppose to have dinner..but well cancelled.. hehe...

mommy called me... ermm i think i asked too much from my mommy... well im sick person hahahahaha yeah rriiiitte... i want to eat bak chang... bak chang oh bak chang... yummilicious...

u somehow made me think twice now... r u? do u? have u ever? bleah!

errmmmmmmmmmm.... exam is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh scary!!!!

*blink*

things i will do after exam:
-get myself facial at leonard drake... i dun care i dun care.. my face now very dry and so not taken care...
-indulge myself in MPH and buy books...
-watch the overdue movies tht my friend gave to me
-have a very very very healthy meal...
-sleep...
-visit 1U

yesh!!! and this will come true soon!! lalala~~~

random thoughts...

yesterday nite had a dinner in some kampung called ulu langat... nice!! tho i had the most expensive yee mee in my entire life muahaha...

...... sometimes when i just need tht care... that small gesture.. i couldnt get it.. do i put too much expectation? i dun think so.. im sick, and if i hope for it, its reasonable thing rite? ish... i feel confuse now hahaha...

well.. exam is coming..stress... i think God is trying to tell me not to give up... even God used someone most unlikely to tell me tht.. Ok Lord i wont give up...

ermmm.... i read a quite disturbing news... a son killed his parents and then went for holiday using his parents credit card... ermm.... isnt it sad? what's wrong with the world? :(

ya ya... talking on my thesis... i somehow quite lost... i somehow quite not ready... hahahahaha but well yunny gotta face what she's gotta do isnt she? plz plz plz... if i have a bf mb rite now i will keep on bother him with my "aiyo how ar??" and then when he ask "how what?" then i will answer with my typical answer "i oso dunno... how ar??" hahahahahahhahaha...well being my bf isnt easy at all.... muahahaha...

well sick ppl just dunno what he/she writting.. muahahahaha... ya ya im talking bout myself!!

i was telling chintia..what if i continue ur project? make it to walk? hahahahhaha..she said its not easy to continue one's project hahahahaha...well i guess so.. and im not so into robotic stuff.. nah!! i more into some calculation and bla bla bla bla....

actually what i want to write? all i have been writing do not have point or objective.. hahahahaha... well.. i oso dunno what i want to write.. hahahahahahahahaha... basically just want to write lar...


ow... my birthday is coming.. dont ask how old i am... dont!!! i even have requested to only have one candle on my bday cake... muahahahaha..can i jasmine jie?? hahahahahhaa u got no choice but to fulfill my wish hahahaha..its quite simple mah.. hahaha..

hahahahahhahahaha yesh im 10 years old..

adios..gotta continue on my notes... lalala...