sleepy....

where is my baby???????

i get very cranky when i dun get enough sleep..

so my dear friends,

i am so sorry if i somehow a bit not smiley face and talk to u with a plain face...

------- cranky --------

i need my anecdote...

i could search for all eternity long,
and find there is none like You.

yesterday as i was lying down on my bed...
suddenly i felt so stress..
the pictures of all the responsibilities i hold haunt me..
i felt like something going to explode inside..


but....

God said
there is none like Him..
He will touch me like never before..
i could search for all eternity long
but i wouldnt find someone like Him

His mercy is like river wide
suffering children are safe in His arms..


a friend said glory is released under pressure...
a friend said true friends are discovered during hard times..
a friend said characters are emerged during trials..

indeed is true..

glory is released.. i see who really work for His glory
true friends are discovered... i see who really care for each other..
characters are emerged.... i see who the true faces of ppl around me..

not only that.. i begin to see my true self as well..

improving and transforming..

touch me Lord... for no one can touch me like You do...

i choose to forgive

full stop

#%&@#^&*$!

ermmmm.... 4am in the morning.. after sending ppl back home.... i am dead tired but my mind cant stop thinking...

things do happen..

i am thinking should i defend myself? or should i apologize?

defending myself doesnt sound wise to me...

apologizing doesnt sound wise to me either....

am i right? or the other way round?

why it must be like this?

is it my responsibility?

.............................

i dunno.....

sad + confuse + angry + guilt + offended all become one....

sigh.. but i have no time to even entertaint all those.....

i barely have time to touch my text books...

i barely have time to take care of my face...

i barely have time to wash my clothes

i barely have time to spend with my loved ones...

i barely have time to spend time doing the things that i like...

i barely have time to watch the movie i longing to watch...

so....

what do u expect me to do???????????????????????????????

ermm...weird... very weird.....

have u ever been so emo? have u ever been so devastated? have u ever been in the state where u dun feel to talk or to see people?? have u ever been so desperate and lonely that you feel that the whole world is turning its back on u??

i guess everybody has been thru that... i am pretty sure.. if you havent then i would like to say you are abnormal... hehe..

ermm... i have met few people that when they are down.. they bring the whole world down with them.... when they are down they seem to be the worse ignorance ever...

lets learn some lesson here..

the don's (s) when you are down:
1. dont forget ur responsibities..
2. dont be rude in ur words and actions
3. never ever MIA... you would never know what urgent matter u need to handle...
4. dont bring the whole world down with u..
5. dont mix ur emotion and ur job..
6. dont start blaming others


of course u might shoot me back with like "hey, i am down, i am not like you strong and can always pull urself together."

yeah rite... dun ever shoot me with tht kind of words u barely know me... of course this thing doesnt come just like tht.. i learn and i discipline myself...

as a grown up... more responsibilities we need to handle, we cant say "oh today i dun feel good, i dun want to know anything."

can u say to ur lecturer "i dun feel good, i am emo now, so i dun feel like doing my asssg" heck, they wont even care.. its ur responsibility.. u need to do it and fin it on time..

can u say to ur boss "hey boss today i am so emo, once i wake up i dun feel good, so i dun want to go work." yeah try that, if ur boss doesnt fire u... do let me know..

can u say to ur wife or hubby "dear, today i am not in mood so i wont do my responsibility as ur spouse." yeah... then i will certified u as the worse wife/hubby..

can u say to ur children "today i am in bad mood, so no dinner." what kind of parents are you????

plz always think like tht before you think that you are the centre of the world.. plz think twice bfore u take any action....

:) lets be a mature person...

lalalalalala....

i am

HAPPY

yes i am...

coz i can relax at home after so long....


thank God its monday....

got a called from eng kim..thanks bro... somehow ur call always comfort me... :)

i hope chintia is doing fine... worried for her... sis, jia you ya... whatever happened you must be strong and i always ready when u need my help.. :)

............ suddenly i dunno what to write..........

nitezz...

phew finally can have some rest... tired tired tired...

you know wht? something has turn me off.. yeah its a turn off for me..so u better watch out of what u do and what u say....

my room so messy now... on thursday i turned it to be our small transformer's workshop... and my living room.. needless to say.. haihz... i must get ppl back to clean it up hahah esp my room.. anyone? those who love me...plz come and clean my room... hahahaha...

well.. din make it to missionarist final.. sorry guys... i've given my best...

ok lar.. i have a lot to say but my brain have stopped working...

showcase showcase

chintia is chintia, wilsey is wilsey and yunny is yunny.... however when the 3 of us brain storming... we can surely come out with some outstanding ideas and have good laugh...

well mostly come out from chintia and i am the one made the joke... and wilsey is the one bcome the victim... bwahahahaha.... anihow... we want to win it if we could... hehe and surely if we win we gonna treat ourselves in some good place to dine... bwahahahhahaa... k k guys?

well... i tell u what? once we showcase the product... i will post up the pic of the process.. it simply more fun than the outcome i guess... prepare to have the good laugh...

reading my missionarist book.. ermm tired... sleepy... and hungreee.....

guys pray for chintia, wilsey, and me k?? thanks a lot guys...

power encounter

it was a great honor having Ps. Mike ans Sister Joy with us for one whole week... 6 sessions with them were awesome!!!!!!!

simple teaching yet so powerful!!! first time in my life that i encounter God in such a way that i really felt His presence and that i was having conversation with God.. i tear like nobody else's business...

Ps. Mike really teach us the technical side on how to enter the presence of God and how to minister to other... :) first time in my life i actually minister to other in a way that i minister to myself as well.. i felt so calm inside and peaceful... i felt that God really moving thru me... :)

Ps. Mike also spoke the word of season to me..

overall i am so ready to go for war again hahahaha..

well, stress nia... its already week 5... its already almost half of the semester gone.. i found very hard to find balance between my study and my ministry.. for like almost 2 weeks i came back home midnite... i still trying my best to attend most of my lecturers... lately always overslept... catching up with my studies... hard but i have to strive... God strengthen me and give me wisdom... chintia already keep on warning me and ask me to consider about my ministry...

well happy to see greg with us again today.. hehe he looked so tired.. but just happy to have him around.. he is surely the man of God and awesome leader in my life... just a few mins with him i already can draw so much from him.. :)

ermm... what else ar?? well yesterday had a great time with the cluster teammates.. hehehe... they all really funny ppl.. jaya,wilfred aka tan sri, gerald, desmond, wilsey, timo, kevin, chu earn, and esther... .so long never actually enjoy myself laughing (not long lar 2 weeks only)....

today i replay the video.... he just left for one day but it does make big different.. today leaders' meeting without him seem a bit weird.. no longer i can call him.. no longer impromptu movie sesssions.... today ppl keep on saying how it is diff without eng kim around.. ya i miss you already lar!!! u better make sure u come back here with a lot of presents for us here k?? hahahaha or else i sepak u back to sweden or made u into swedish meat balls....

ahhh ok gotta study again.enough break liao..

already so tired still make me angry?

very boh song lar!!!!!

ranting

ermm today will be another tough day for me.. i dunno what i am feeling now.. sad? well i dun feel it now.. happy? neither do i... numb? i dun think so.... stress? kinda...



well... this week i realised one thing.. i've been revolving around myself... without i am knowing it.. when Rev. Mike preached bout martha and marry, i began to see my life for this past 2 weeks, full of myself, began to blaming others for my tasks and so on... i feel so ashamed after that.. knowing tht i was wrong with God... certainly i dun feel good bout this.. i feel so bad... i feel so lausy.. i couldnt focus on my duty on sunday last service... God is good... He indeed is my best friend.. His touch is always more than enough...



now.. what i need to do is to align my life again with God and put God ahead of everything.. i need to picture everything in bigger view so that i wont miss anything... :) well, so far i just concern bout other ppl.. indeed what bible says is always true, i read it and i know its for me but i din take action... and God send me a more obvious messenger.. Rev. Mike himself... :) thank God..



well.. today my dearest friend leaving for sweden.. well i am very sure he gonna have great time there... sure!! i am pretty sure.. gonna miss him lot..... hopefully i dun cry later at KLIA... sigh...been so bz this week that actually forgot bout his plan....



...... almost cried at comp lab just now.. :(

ahhh ya btw..was talking to Mr. Diksha.... ermm this world is getting sick... u know wht? in third world country (in case u dunno what is that, eg. cambodia, india, africa, vietnam etc.) kids (girls and boys) as young as age of nine are sold to become sex slave... and according to research, the age of boys and girls involved are getting younger in recent years... sad isnt it? what should we do?

all bout cakes

disclaimer: this post is not suitable for guys. leave asap if you are one. only for girls (gays perhaps? hehe)

blueee........ ermm i think this is swet hehe...

too flowerish..but very pweetyyy... *wink*

aahhh...classic one...

this one... unique..cool hahahaha..

hehe cute cute cute....

hehehe.... what do u think bout this?

ok... i love this one... nice, u see the strawberries??? mouth watering... this is my second fav...

yay!! my fav!!!!! loving it.. strawberries are just sexy....

so girls.... which one do u l ike????

pretty much the old dated pictures of me...

tai chao restaurant near esso.... you are forever in my list... to make me eat something i dun like... must give u the credit *loud cheer*

what is that????

-----> buntut tikus mee a.k.a mouse mee a.k.a lo shi fen (i know the former two names kind of gross)

yumm i have healthy lunch today.... yin yong, kang kong, lo shi fen and hokkien mee... ok ok not i eat all alone lar.. i have lunch with daniel, ming jie and ah ben... yuyuum and only cost me RM8 hahahaha.. loving it!!!!

yeah almost fin 4305 lab report.. hehe.. suddenly feel a bit smart *beams*

yuumm ok gotta go liao hahaha.. tata

charity

according to research, long period of being exposed to UV light is dangerous to skin. It causes early aging and skin damage.

according to research, global warming has affected malaysia badly.

according to research, black color absorb light faster and better.

according to research, V-kool tint film is so far the best that yunny know.

-we must love those who are lovable (hint: me) and in need-

so friends,

lets give to the yunny's car upgrading tabung.

if you care for yunny's health,
if you call yourself yunny's friend,

do give to:
yunny need money charity
ridzuan condominium


-thanks to those who willing to give, you will surely be able to ride freely in my car-

2.30am i just fin everything... tired...

bro, i am sorry to make u worry... u know what i will continue to strive my best... one thing that i said i will keep it... i will make u leave malaysia with peace... :)

haih... i dunno why.. since morning i dun feel good.. i feel sad, i feel so stress, i feel so empty...

ermm i have fear...

ahhh.. i dunno why lar... suddenly so emo...

i think monash uni too big liao.. i feel intimidated somehow ahahahaha.. yeah rriiiiite...

ahhh.... nitezz peeps...

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today i feel very.. mind u VERY with capital alphabet... yes today i feel very unhappy... dun ask me why....

this issue i need to talk to our dearly zs already.... i really need enlightened!!!


oww..btw.... poor yellow mini.... the exos pipe fall off the car!!! oh no!!!!

time to write an email...

adios.....

hmmpphhh with emerge coming on... many talents are discovered.. hahaha today i really impressed with Gordong's guitar performance.. very very very good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

amazed!!!!!!!

ermm... btw today i dunno why.. i really felt so angry over certain person..... i just need my time out... i felt bad at the same time knowing that i was mad for wrong reason.. but heck... how???

i just realized that now already august!!!!!!! time to re-check my goal and vision... oh no!!!! i am now even more nervous... i need to buck up... 4 more months before 2007 end... must focus focus focus!!!

i am wondering, am i intefering too much? am i being to harsh? am i being to irrational? tell me... what should i do? both also my friends... but... there are things i just feel that i need to get it straight for them.. but, again... is this under my authority?

consequences of actions, irresponsible actions and maturity.... how i suppose to handle it?

i am asking God, am i being over righteous? am i being too religious??

i am just angry seeing things not done in the way it should have been done.... i just feel helpless to see my friend in trouble yet i cant do a thing... heck!! i just loathe myself.. but now as i step in i also feel lausy... thinking am i doing the right thing....

heck!! heck!!

i am just angry!!!! plain angry!!!!!!!!!

just bite me lar!!!

tick tock ping pong na na na na....

today jaya said something funny:

jaya: itu lho, orang filipina dari bule
(translation: that one ar, the philiphino from ang moh.)

muahahahahahahahahaha............. funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well..... i was waiting... even till now still waiting... hahahaha time to sleep.. stop waiting lor....

ermmm... today very fruitful eh.. i din take afternoon nap.. something i miss ler... :(

hehehehe... today shirley notice my new hair style... she asked me one question, "wah what occasion oh?" hahhaahahhaa.....

now i am thinking...

should i get those little cute hair pin? u think?? plz give me some recommendation hahaha...


ahhh.. 1.25am and i am still not feeling sleepy....

i am now wearing pink short and black sleeveless top... indulging my self on my bed and typing...

one question:

what will u do under a very uncomfortable situation? let say, somebody that u barely know send u back home?
1. just keep quiet
2. pretending to be bz with ur phone or whatsoever u can play with
3. dying to talk to the person
4. look out the window or try to keep eye contact as less as possible
5. play with your hair
6. praying hard so that u can get out of the situation
7. smile


well what else can u do?

and what would u do when u know someone like you?
1. act stupid and blur
2. tiao ke
3. confront the person
4. just act natural lor..
5. play along with that someone
6. take advantage
7. runaway

what would you do when you dont like your friend's partner?
1. ignore her or him
2. make him or her sick of your presence
3. like her or him eventho its hard
4. always call in sick whenever you have to meet him or her
5. annoy him or her (i like this answer)
6. fake smile
7. fake smile again

hahahahahah.. i think i am just too free lar..

today i dunno why... i feel something weird hahahahahaha.... am i impressed or attracted??? hahahahahahaha... i dunno... i just think this is interesting ahahahahahhaha but well couldnt be bother by it lar.... so many things i need to take care of...

in gap...

at the computer lab....


recently..the rumor around MONASH U MALAYSIA parking fee has brought monash to utter deep humiliation... (wah i actually used such a 'powderful' words?). First of all, ladies and gentlemen, we knew that MUSA or the so called monash university student association is to serve or to improve students' lives in monash or whatsoever... but, according to a quite-reliable-source-slash-classmate apparently MUSA ppl have kept the season parking for themselves first before announcing it to the students.... well not only that, the season parking itself cost us, the-pitiful-and-being-abused-financially-students, RM50.... (what???!!!!)... well, but again ladies and gentlemen, let me emphasize again that all these just rumor....

well... now me, the-pampered-and-spoilt-daugther-of-Mr.Niu is in dilemma.... well car polling is one of the solution for the cheapo me, but then, i cant go back home whenever i want... how?? ermm i've calculated already, if i dun take the season parking, at least also i have to pay RM40 per month just for parking... haihz..... not to mention, that i've been planning to rent a parking space in ridzuan which cost me an additional RM70... goodness!!!!

ok ok i blame monash!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha easier to blame others rite?? hahahaha...

ok stop bout rambling lar... hahahaha...

ermm.... i have got myself a new hair style.. hehehe.... ermm i want to put up pic but my camera has been taken to somewhere else.. soon k?? i promise this time.. hehe... *cross finger*

ermm...i permed my hair.. partially permed.. hehe.. its kinda cool and i like it... that is why i love Paris even more now...

the conversation goes like this:
me:can you change my hairstyle? cut it or whatever... i want to keep long my hair...
Paris: ermmm keep long hair ar?? cut ar??? *looking at my hair*
*long pause*
Paris: why dont you permed your hair?
me: huh??? sure?? then it will be very short and looks like auntie eh...
Paris: no no... itts like this... bla bla bla... *explaining*
me: oooo ok ok *with a bit of doubt* (but i trust him)

so... after 2 hours of process and RM*** my hair was done and it is good hahaha...

photo to come...

ok ok.. must go lab.. hehe..