New Exciting Lifestyle Blogging on The Making

Erm, i am planning to coming up with a new concept of blogging... ideas are still blur for now, but i wanna something like a lifestyle blogging where ppl can come and find what they need in a single blog... well... be it the latest gadgets, where to find, place to stay on vacation or just a place to rant (for the readers of course)...

what the benefit?

well once i heard in radio, networking is not about how many ppl you know but rather how many ppl know you... I need to put myself in the map first. Online is a medium to get me connected to all sort of ppl...

so, while i am revamping my new blog, and getting my ideas clear, i will keep on blogging here hahaha... well this blog is pretty much my whole little journal..


Oh yeah, thats all for now...

keeping my fingers crossed


astalavista~~

Roller Coaster, who scared?

June


July


August


September


October


5 months of roller coaster life... its not easy... but i will continue fight back...

next stop:

I will post the Great Oz pictures
Update on life with Jesus
My next plan on my business...

for once, let me say how I HATE MY CURRENT SEASON OF LIFE

it is hard to deal with parents... sometimes they are easy to talk too sometimes they just refuse to understand us for they thought that they know what is best for us, which sometimes it might be wrong..

it is not pleasant to argue with parents.... the guilt and regret always come later... yet you dun know how to apologize because sometimes it is just not your fault and it's truly unfair and a non-sense...

it is very discouraging when day by day what you got is negative input from parents, looking down at you, picking on every single mistakes you make and dont even bother at your achievement or improvement..

it is very suffocating when you dont have your own space just to cry... to wash off those frown on your face, to wash off those anger in your heart..

it is hurtful when you are blamed for something you are not..

it is hurtful when your love for parents is taken for granted...

it is hurtful to hear 'you will never ever go far in your life' what does that suppose to mean?

it is mean to say that your own freaking daughter doesnt love you, and only care for you because you are one wealthy old man... i aint gold digger

it is even more shameful when you know above all these, you are still depending on your parents...

i have no whatsoever to be proud of... i have nothing else left but a piece of heart that truly care and love my parents but do they know that? apparently they DONT...

it is the feeling of being beaten down till you cant get up, even when u get up, you cant take up your face to look up because you are too embarrassed....

i think now, i really dun know how to love my parents...

they said i dont understand them, but do they understand me?

i dont freaking mind to be a good listener for them, but i am not rubbish bin to accept all their bitterness and anger...

why???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????


P.S. no further question will be entertained by me, I MEAN IT

Sunday blues?

Huhuhuhu i miss Paris.. i really need my hair to be cut and colored... sigh... thts one major part why i dislike staying here... i cant get a proper hair cut...

aniwei...

i got a book by Mitch Albom: Have a Little Faith...

'Til then..

astalavista~~

Meaning of life..

so tired, just came back from my cousin's funeral, tomorrow she'd be cremated.. this will be the hardest part for her mom.

tomorrow is another day of working day.. this whole day i keep on feel hungry, nothing satisfy my big appetite...

you know what? after this funeral, i really see how privileged i am to be in my family, to have my parents as my parents.. regardless of their imperfection their the best for me, God knows what is best for me. Our imperfections make us a very unique family. Imperfectly beautiful we are, i really thank God for my dad and my mom.

even when my mom and my dad couldnt spend much time when we are younger and couldnt give us the luxurious life when we were young, but they have set good examples before us.

i learn to be grateful, to be respectful, to be humble, to be strong, to be courageous, to be generous and to be loving from my parents. they have set examples for us to see and this is something that we cant gained from any other places.

its really a honor for me to have a parents like them and i really thank God for them.

why suddenly i rap bout this? it is because during the funeral, i have heard many stories of broken family, i have heard stories of parent's being ignorant and so many more stories that is rounding bout family issues.

and this funeral itself is the solid and vivid evidence of the ignorance of parents (this case is father la).. and also the evidence of broken value system in a family..

how a father runs a family will determined how the family will run, how a father lead his life will determined how the children lead their lives. when a father cant be a firm and wise family leader, the family will collapsed. when a father doesnt have a value system, the family will live in confusion. when a father cant provide to his family, the family will live in poverty not only physical but also spiritual.

this funeral really made me think a lot.

why some people cant just learn from experiences?
why some people cant learn from past mistakes?
why some people cant learn from success?

Farewell..

Today, 11 October 2009, My cousin Vania has returned to Father in Heaven. She's 12 years old. Rest in peace Vania, you'll be missed by all of us.

Forgiveness

I must force myself to blog this before i forgot or become too lazy to even bother to type this post..

SO, here's the story:

Disclaimer: this is very religious and Godly post.

OK, so last week, i wrote an email to Pastor Kevin to share with him my struggle while i am here. I just have to share because i am in the verge of breaking down, u'd know it.

I told Pastor how my life has been and how i am not doing well here and i am so scared.

Pastor replied me instantly and very concerned of my well being. Pastor suggested me to come back to KL to strengthen my faith and equipped myself better for the adjustment in life that i am facing now.

Even there is no solid solution yet but Pastor concern and prayer really bring warmth to my heart. So after i read the email (which i received on sunday morning), i went to church.

I dunno why, during the worship i just wept and wept. God spoke to me things.

God showed me the reason why i found God is not relevant and not true to me. God showed me how i have resisted my dad since i came back here, i felt that my dad doesnt understand me and i just become lazy to talk to my dad. Because of that, the image of a father in my life become corrupted, subconsciously i felt it was hard to talk to God too, i cant feel His presence and i felt His word is not relevant to me.

I also have a inner fight in my mind, knowing that i let God down again and again, i have this constant fight in my head telling me just give up on God and the guilt is just killing me slowly and softly.

So during the worship i have this urge to immediately apologize to my dad and reconcile with my him.

The amazing thing is this, the preacher shared about life is a second chance and that we need to use our life time wisely to invest in eternal life that GOd promised. She asked us what would we do if we only left 30 days to live.

In the altar call, she told us to reconcile to the ppl we loved whom we have broken relationship with, at that moment i know that this is a confirmation of what God spoke to me earlier on.

So, after 3 days, i take the courage to send an SMS ( i know i am a sucker at talking mushy mushy things to my dad) saying i am sorry for letting him down and making him angry at times, i will do my best to become a better daughter. No reply from him but the tension between us gone and now i just become more patient when i talk with him, so does him.


one thing is done.

thank God and Pastor Kevin.

and tonite in CG, is another direction from God. But now i am very sleepy so i will share again tomorrow hahaha...

Pardon my english ok.. i am now very sleepy while im typing this haha..

nitezz...

well... where to start?

OK... I think my life got a glimpse of hope...


i want to say a million thanks To Pastor Kevin Loo

Just Wait

OK...

after my Aussie trip post, i shall be back with my journey blog in discovering God and myself once again..

This gonna be great..


Til then~~

...

i suppose to post up my pictures but then... i accidentally closed the window while its uploading.. sigh!!!!

Too bad...

Til then~~

Oz

alrighty.. i am back at home after 10 days at the land under....

It was surely a good time apart from being lectured by my parents, i mean 3 of us (the siblings) went together but only me got lectured, ALWAYS!! i mean, does it written on top of my forehead: 'I love being lectured, Lectured me PLEASE?' sigh... but, who am i to complain? Though it turned my holiday mood off sometimes.

OK, but lets not talk bout the down turn of my holiday, lets talk something HAPPY.. hehe..

OK,Gold coast is a good place, the weather just perfect.. Its not too cold nor too hot, the sunshine just perfect.... I ma loving it... We stayed at Surfer Paradise. The beach was awesome, Kuta Bali surely defeated by this one haha the sand is white and so soft when it touches my skin... the sea water is breezing cold... hahaha...

Off to Movie world and Sea world.. Got a new friend from Movie World, picture later hahaha... I love Sea World...i mean its nothing extraordinary bout it but it was surely another different experience altogether...

Then Sydney... i love Sydney!!!!! Great shopping, great food and great weather.. But on the my third day of my staying, there was sand storm hitting Sydney, the whole Sydney was red covered by dust... Thank God it came back to normal by noon time but the wind is still strong and still quite dusty though not red anymore... hehe..

Then, we went to Blue Mountain... it has a great scenery and it is a good place to have a walk just to relax and enjoy the nature... i would surely come back again...

You know what? i will just post up the pictures hehehe...

Melbourne is the highlight... Drove along the Great Ocean Road (my bro drove actually, i just drove a bit)... Quite tiring though because it takes 4 hours from melbourne to reach to the 12 Apostles stop... but no regret, it was awesome!!!

But tell you what, the most happy time through out my holiday was my dating with this great person, Thomas Yong hahaha.... oh man, how i miss him so much!! hehe... We had great time together, talked so much and he was so nice, he brought me to all places that serve good dessert... hehehe He brought me to Brunetti, to San something something to had the best churros i've ever had... He wanted to brought me to Max Brenner but it was so packed... But nonetheless, i have great time with him... He is so sweet... ha ha ha.. cant wait to meet him again.. OK, sounded like i love this guy huh? but nope, we are just very good friend since college.. and we are the one kind.. funny, easy-going and 38

Then the last day, we went to Brisbane for sight seeing... hehe... we had the bestest roasted pork ever!! it was crunchy on the outside and juicy on the inside.. sinfully delicious!!! hehehe...

So that's pretty much my holiday, i will let the pictures (on next post) to tell the complete story ok? hahaha i guess i am just way too lazy to write everything in detail...

OH ya, talking bout the journey, we stayed at some very good hotels and you know what? i suppose have a very good night sleep rite? but NO, i wasnt able to sleep very well!!!! sigh...

oh, next post also i will post a long complain on Air Asia!!!!! I shall never take Air Asia lest i have to!!

I also had a dream on my last night of the holiday.. It was a dream that made me thinking back on good memories throughout my journey to Goldcoast --> Brisbane --> airport....

ok so till next post...

Ciaoz~~

Day 1 - Where all begin

Word Of God - Forgive your debtor as how God forgives you.


at first it was blurry.. i mean, i have heard this passage for thousand of times and i've learned to forgive people even sometimes it is hard.

I was asking God, who else should i forgive? Do i still have any unforgiveness within me? if yes, what is it and to whom is it?

as i ponder and ponder, then i know i need to forgive myself for what i've done, for who i am..

I begin to replaying my past 5 years. I have been wanting to repent before the Lord that i've tried so hard to follow the Lord, becoming someone that i thought God wants me to be... I become hard to myself..

i feel that i am not good enough for God and i become to despise myself, ashamed of myself and in that process i draw further from God because i thought God wouldnt accept me.

But then, during the CG, as the speaker preached, He said, it is not what you've brought or done for God but God looks at the person, in all the imperfection that we have God still sees us as the most beautiful creation.

I have forgotten that God accepted me for who i am, I have tried to become someone i thought God wants me to be and in the process i have forgotten God's grace and God's mercy.

God told me i need to make peace with my old self, accept my past and move on; only i can birth forth true repentance in my life. Only i can draw near to God not feeling confused of my true identity in God.

That nite, i felt a wrench in my heart, in my spirit.. i know that God has broke me in order to bring restoration to me...

I come to God as who i am, with my impurities, weaknesses and my past; i come to Him and really hiding no more, just come to Him as who i am, original design, not wanting to try to be someone i am not.

This is just day 1 of my journey of discovering God and my self again.. 39 days to go... i want to be closer to Jesus.

Thank You God.

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on the lighter note, the CG was good... :) the people are nice and i once again feel the feeling of new friend.. :P thank God for putting me in this family :)

I am now,

Fasting and praying period.


'Til further notice ya.

astalavista~~

T____T

I am SO SO SORRY Lord.................

Skeletons....

You know, if there is one thing i do best, it is to observe... I love to observe people around me, that is why during my high school to uni time I prefer to sit on the last row in the class... Reason being I can observe people and I just feel comfortable not being the center of attraction hehe..

So, see... I come out with this theory: Only a person with a lot of skeletons in his/her closet will assume that any other person he/she meet also have skeleton, at least, in her/his closet.

I know it's like a very useless theory i have, one of those.. But it makes good sense, isn't it?

So, sometimes when I am in a crowded place, I love to observe the passer by... I will think to myself what secrets do they have, what kind of a life do they lead, what kind of emotion do they go through at that time being instead of appearing happy on the outside...

Ok, maybe i am just that busy body but I have this kind to ticklish feeling in my heart to know what a person really think or going through in their life.. like, are they really happy, happy? are they really meaning what they say?

suppose i am a person that doesn't really happy, happy and doesn't really mean what i say... (refer to my theory mentioned above)...

Anyway, I really don't know what I got into this subject... the whole point of this is: I like to observe people around me and very keen to know their real life (what kind of skeletons do they keep?)..

Having said that, don't ask me what skeletons i keep ok? hehe i have too many to list down..

And, talking about future, sigh... i need more time to re-organize my life and my thoughts... sigh... *slap slap* pull yourself together Yunny!!!

Anyway... I cant wait to attend cell group this coming saturday.. woo hoo.. It's gonna be fun!!! :)

ok, talking bout skeletons, what skeletons do u have?

hahahaah... i will give u one of mine...

I used to wear size 16 for jeans... :P

so what's yours?

Its weekend...

Today i watched Final Destination 4, but then... Psshhh dun tell anybody okay? i walked out from the cinema halfway through the movie because if i stay a second longer i would stop breathing ha ha ha.. i hate those brutality... too sadistic... i dunno why on earth people pay to direct this movie and worst, why on earth i watch it in the first place? i dun understand... there goes my money!!!!


ermm yesterday nite i visited my old blog haha.... my life as a student surely a good one... my second year was like a vacation for me... everyday just having fun... i miss those days.. the good ol' days...

aniwei, i cant wait for my trip to the land under.. woo hoo.. its gonna be fun and im gonna take many many pictures, im gonna buy a lot a lot a lot of books and im gonaa eat a lot a lot a lot of local delicacies...

ermmm i can wait for my bro to come back from canada... its been years that we gather as one complete family hehe... we are planning for a big family trip hehe...

oh and u know what? my nephew is so the cute.. he likes to imitate what he sees... hahahah the other day i show him to do a ballerina stunt haha.. i raise my both hands above my hand to make make an 'O' shape then i turn around (i dunno what that movement in ballet called as)... then he looked at me and grinned, he raise his both hands too (but his hands are short so his hands only barely touch the top of his head) then he turned too... so cute!!!!!

then rite, he talks in alien language.... hahahahaha..its something like the mix of tamil + korean hahaha... cute cute cute... super cute!!!!!!!!!

ermmm very vain...


ok la i just dunno what to write..

til i got another revelation ya.


astalavista~~

Family and Career at one go

Every time i want to start writing, i always have this blank phase where i just don't know what to write. Before, i had a lot in my mind; rant, revelation and all the randomness i got from watching too much DVD (during and off work hee hee.

Anyway, what am i suppose to write down?

Ok, here's the deal:

I guess most of you have watched Lipstick Jungle (pardon my outdated-ness). What trigger my lately-malfunctioned-brain is this: is it possible to build family and career at the same time for women?

I have seen few women that i know able to build a family and career at the same time. However, i guess it is just not everybody's cup of tea eh?

I am a believer of my own philosophy: what you can do or you can have in your life doesn't always meant for me.

Example: you can be a very attractive young woman, with successful career at hand and happy family (handsome and loving husband and 2 beautiful kids) and you are happy about it; but that doesn't mean in order for me to be happy i must have the similar things in my life as you do.

The problem, i believe, is not whether it is possible or not to have both career and family but rather what do you really want in your life.

See, when we are measuring the meaning of our life (happiness, fulfillment and wholeness), a lot of times we take other standard of measurement to measure ours.

When we use the wrong measurement, we would never find out the reasons of our unhappiness.

A lot of times we never really sit down and think thoroughly what makes us happy and whole as a human being.

We think that by having what others have that seems to fill the vacant in their lives would bring the same effect as it does to others, but i realize that it is not the case.

Simple case: My sister's simple happiness is to hang out in the bookshop and purchase the latest edition of the manga she reads, but as for me, that doesn't work on me. My simple happiness in life is just to tuck in my bed and read novel without being disturbed.

So, is it possible to have both career and family at the same time? It's your choice, if career and family make you happy and whole as a person then i believe you would be able to achieve (or at least have the capacity to achieve both) both at the same time. Why? because you have joy in building both, with joy there will flow strength, creativity and you will be able to expand your capacity beyond your wildest imagination. Surely, there would be rough patches but with the joy in your heart and determination you'd doing just fine.

This is just my philosophy. What say you?

As for me: I know my capacity, will i have both or choose either one? i will only choose either one, because i am that lousy in multitasking. You ask me which one? That's for me to know and for you to guess.

'Til then,

Astalavista~~

P.S if you notice, i am reducing the use of dot in my post

moodless..

We are just hit by earthquake.. it's not very badly hit in Jakarta, i am waiting for further update on the news regarding the quake. Tasikmalaya is the main part of the quake, the earthquake was measured at 7.3 scala ritcher... i just hope there is no dead victim...

actually now i feel like screaming.......


nitez all... i got no mood..

just to tell you guys i am still breathing...

hi ya' all!!!

how u doing? (quoted from Joey, Friends)

Yesterday i changed my remaining SGD and now i am literally a millionaire hahaha..

I brought my mom and friends to had xiao long bao at Din Dai Fung restaurant... it was good, but still i prefer the Singapore's branch.. it is better because they used pork.. me heart pork..

after the lunch, we went to glodok (its a place in jakarta)to meet my mom's friend's niece... i dun like going there but i really felt proud of myself being able to drive there without any scratches left at my lovely car.. he he he.. oh talking bout car, i occasionally miss my baby, my first car....

then aniwei, this is the very interesting thing that happened to me yesterday:

my mom's friend said this very remarkable sentence:

'do not ever trust your pastor, but trust only in God'

see, actually there is nothing wrong but still there is something not quite right here...

i believe what she means is that not to worship the pastor and to put your belief system on your pastor but rather on God.

we ought to be submissive to our pastor and the leadership of the church, because the church where we are rooted in and the leaders in our lives is appointed by God.

of course, faith is not blind faith.. faith comes with wisdom and discernment from God.. this is where we ought to learn to discern the good and the bad fruits.

so the question is here, if we cant submit to our pastor, can we actually submit our self to the lordship of JC?

so what you think of it?

let me know what you think ok?

astalavista~~

By Grace I am Saved..

this weekend is a long weekend.. i gave myself a treat after hard work hehe.. i watched 2 movies in the row...

Up and G.I Joe are so good (btw, what GI stand for?) hehe..

anyway... yesterday (sunday), i woke up very early in the morning and then i went to church... you know the saying: 'one day in the house of God is better than a thousand day in the world' It is so true....

the Preacher said this: 'prayer with right attitude, the right mind set arent just enough, you need to lead a godly life style as well'

It is a simple truth, but that is something i have forgotten along the my way with JC... i always thought that i have led the right life style.. but when i was sitting there in the congregation, i was like being slap right left up front.... sad isnt it?

It was hurting to know that... i mean, not that i feel i failed myself but rather i failed God...

JC is the only One i never want to hurt (though i seldom do that again and again)... its not just emo...

that day i really asked God to really birth forth in me true repentance... and now i slapping myself every morning to remind me that this time i really will and i will lead a godly life not for anybody in this world, not for me but for God....

ah well, enough of the emo-ness....

ah well, btw i got myself 2 books as well, i dun really like reading a book in bahasa but no choice, its hard to find english version and not to mention how costly it is... hehehe... i really like the book i reading now by Max Lucado.

i am a geeky...

astalavista~~

Sneeze

Scene 1: You are eating (chewing to be more specific), then suddenly you feel the urge to sneeze, hence, you fasten your chewing mechanism. Alas, it's too late still for you to finish chewing... You sneeze with all your heart.. Imagine what happen? a little of your left over food (in this case it is cha siew bao)burst out from your mouth.. *sob*

Scene 2: You thought you wont sneeze anymore, hence you take a big bite of your cha siew bao.. This time, suddenly you sneeze, you cant help to control it. *jeng jeng jeng* what happened you guess? all the half chewed meat and bao all came out...

Well, anyhow, this is just an imagination.. Don't try this at home... :)

Be blessed!

ciaoz~~

ssshhhhhh... my mom is sleeping so soundly... dont wake the monster up..

its a serene weekend over here... my eye got swollen so hence the serene weekend...

i finished my Time Traveler's Wife.. its a well written book... really a book that can stir your emotion and made you feel the characters' emotions.. two (four if possible) thumbs up for this book! and i love the ending... the ending is a mixture of joy and sorrow... losing someone yet you know that eventually you gonna meet that someone if only you keep waiting and believing.. amazing isnt it? seriously, read this book... ha ha ha.. i seldom share what i read le.. so this book definitely is a worth to grab..

so now.. what is my next book? it will be plane Babylon (or something like that more or less)..

i want to get myself a new HP... seesshhh... should i?

btw, i think Angelina Jolie is nowhere near pretty ha ha ha.. Jealous? mb la.. but seriously, no matter what kindness of charity acts she has done, it cant be denied that she is just a marriage wrecker... i am no pro-Jennifer Aniston, but i hate those women who knowingly steal other's husband. to be fair, i hate those men who knowingly cheat on their wives too...

ha ha ha..why i say so? suddenly i am lashing out what anger to Angie? (angie? sound like we are good friends eh?) i dunno, i just never like the idea of divorce, getting married again and bla bla bla.. cheating on spouses... wht is this? what has happened to the sanctity of marriage? (as quoted from Rachel Greene, FRIENDS)

oh well as to say that, hence, do not take marriage lightly... its not just a paper to sign and like playing house u know?

ok la.. my battery is running out.. ha ha ha

astalavista~~

munch lunch munch

oh yeah... i am at home lunching my way and HBO-ing.. seriously, my english is superb...

this time journey, i really realized that i don't like ppl persist to know how i am doing in my life.. it never cross my mind till last week when i was talking to a friend of mine... its kinda scary knowing that.. what has happened to me? ha ha ha.. after all, i think i am quite ok after all... but now that i think back, i think i have a lot issue ha ha ha... emo? yes..


oh, today broadcast live from the red carpet:

my second aunt (from my mother's side) ran away... well actually up to now, we all dont know her where about.. ermmm we suspected she ran away from home because she is up set with her family condition, mainly her eldest son and daughter-in-law (the said son's wife)...

ok so here's he story.. she not happy because her son has not been behaving well and that know her daughter-in-law has delivered her first daughter, my 2nd aunt felt that she's not being rational bla bla bla... this is a very rough plot because i dont know the details (and also i dont bother to know)...


so now, the big family is worried for her...

so my big question is this.. will run away actually solve the problem?

actually all these can be solved with talking, i mean, for my name sake, my 2nd aunt can actually talk and demand her son to behave rationally.. after all she is the MOTHER...

in my dictionary, MOTHER is always to be respected no matter how ridiculous they are...

well..... as a son, we need to make MOTHER and FATHER happy at all cost la... tho sometimes i might feel like vomiting a pile of blood and then drink it again to avoid any waste of my precious blood...

oh well now i am really hoping my aunt is save and is in good hand..

well God, strengthen the family as well and filled them with joy and love...

ermm let see what i did again today... well at least i din broke any of my neighbor's property haha...

ok till then, till i broke someone's property...

astalavista~

update:
its a false alarm dudes, my 2nd aunt doing fine..
this is the interesting part: she was doing her hair in the saloon, and i dunno why on earth her cell phone wasnt able to be contacted.. ha ha ha...

but still, lets rejoice for her return in one piece, save and sound...

a little note for all the mothers around, when you are leaving the house, please make sure you leave a little cute note to notify us where you are...

huuummmpphhhh...

I am in love with L'Occitane... nice!!!!

i am now reading Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey N.

its a good book i might say, well written and the plot really flows smoothly... as if i am so expert.. duh??

my trip to KL/Singapore was a good one... it was an extreme fun and also a time where i really leak such a very top secret information... shesshhh... sometimes i wonder, did i do the right thing? well anihow.... im not expecting any black mail.. ha ha ha...

well i do miss my old good friends.. with all the heart to heart talk, with all the hardcore-fun we had, i really thank God for them... 10 years already we've known each other! haha.... where would i find such bunch?


ermm i think i bound to be a bad neighbor.. today i ran over my neighbor's vase ha ha ha... i am so sorry... i really din see the small little vase...

dikos: if u happen to read this, all the best with ur job oh... and i miss talking to u over the net, so come back to msn can? ha ha ha...

so astalavista~~

it's thursday again...

my friend got married already... im happy for her, i do hope she and her husband have a wonderful and beautiful marriage.

i actually have so many question in my head for her but i think now that she is married already, i better keep those questions in my head and bless her with all my heart and my mind. :)

my nephew is so the cute and smart. ha ha ha.. how i adore him, but he still refuse to talk... he can but he doesnt want, what a strong character huh?

i have ordered 5 books through the internet, its a used book from UK mostly but its considerably cheap la considering that not all good books are available here in ASIA... but it does cost me a bomb to my ever-shrinking-bank-account... boo!!

actually i have few ideas in my head but its kinda hard to apply it in Indonesia (Asia, south east asia) because of the life style of the ppl... but u know what, with God everything is possible, i just need to sit down, plan, resourcing and action... voila i got my idea come to true. :)

gotta work hard!!! *keep on chanting*

ciaoz~~

ting ting ting ting ting ting

-when we ask God for patience, what does God gives to us? it's opportunities to be patience-

just something to think about.

lunch or no lunch

Michael Jackson, the King of Pop is dead.... i know i am so late, but i just want to say rest in peace MJ... im not an avid fan of MJ, there are only few of his hit songs that i like such as 'beat it', 'black or white', 'heal the world' and 'you are not alone'; still when i got to know his death i was quite shock. again, many ppl were shocked upon learning his death, it is because his death was so sudden and that he was planning to go on coming back concert which million of ppl were anticipating it. well, nonetheless, rest in peace.

ha ha ha.. so cliche to actually start with MJ but its just something cross my mind...

i dunno why, it is mood swing or what, i just cant stand the fact that certain ppl out there is breaking in to my boundary.. i cant breathe wei.. give me a break would ya?

im craving for ajisen ramen volcano corn ramen, chicken karaage and gyoza... *drool*

i have officially ruined my 1 week hard-earned-diet by 1 day-splurge at ajisen ramen last weekend... booooo

im thinking of lunch now, if there is one job that i hate doing now is thinking and deciding for lunch... ugh.. been doing that for the past 11 years... booo..

my mom is sick... pray for her ya..

im now at home baby sitter eh wait.. not baby sitter but maid/nurse... ha ha ha not so much of maid actually..

im in love with kiwi now, the fruit i mean...

this coming august.. my 2 best friends is back from sg... woo hoo...

i miss mentari zhap fan... so nice!!!!!

oh yeah, hua lian, one of the province in taiwan was just struck with earth quake last nite... pray for them tho its not serious one but lets hope there wouldnt be any continual earth quake

pray for xin jiang too... there is riot over there...

pray for SBY too so that he could win the election and be a good president this coming 5 years.. i have good faith in him..

ciaozzz

indecisiveness

indecisive... thts what made me an unique person i guess...

i can be so indecisive that sometimes i wonder why God choose me to be a leader? i seem to be awful to make decision for myself and often i made the wrong choices, not a bad one but usually after i made mine, it always appears a better one... however, through all those wrong decisions that God has brought me to where i am now.

i admit that i am still very far away from my dreams.. i dream to be an event organizer, i dream to have a little cozy house, i dream to have my own little family, i dream to go around the world...

whenever i am facing a crossroad, i have no patience in waiting, i always wanted things to be done fast or i would have ran away before i got the right answer. hence, many times i end up hurting people and myself, end up to made bad decisions.

however, when it comes to other's farewell, i seem to be so quick in judgment and making the necessary decision and it mostly is a good decision... i wonder, is it me? or is it how God wired me when He created me?

sometimes i wonder, may be God let me to go through all the bad decisions in my life so that people around me would not repeat the same mistakes i did... was this my calling? or is it because i just unwilling to improve myself?

or is it my nature to take risk? i am always the risk taker in family.. i do seem as the play-safe-girl in appearance, but i do like to take the risk, grasp the challenge in front of my eyes though i know i might fail badly... i love the feeling knowing that im doing something that is beyond my ability.. is it because of this that i always make bad decision?

now that i am facing another major crossroad of my life, what should i do? this time round, i cant afford to make a wrong decision and this is a decision only i can hit the hammer and make the final of it.

B.L.A.N.K

see this is the problem when u r once again got so intimate with your laptop...


i dunno what to think

T____________T

today... i got a new haircut... its pretty good but still i miss Paris... :( he is da best!!! i just feel more secure when he cut my hair... Paris u come indon la!!

tomorrow is mommy's bday.. gonna have lunch with her and the big family.. we have 3 june babes at home... he he he...

oh i got 2 hillsong's CDs and one Don Moen's CD... woohoo.. cool.. mommy thanks for the red packet oh...

ermmmm i do hope i made the right move this time round... i kinda insecure in a way la...

well im sleepy...

nitezz..

ciaozz~~

25th year...

Quote of the week "geli si lo" ok... its not event english... but it's hokkien precisely...

well... usually around this time i would have pretty much talked bout my birthday celebration, but this year round i dunno should i talked bout it or not... it was a 180 degree different from my 25-year-bday-celebration...

age 1 - 6 : it was always a party at home with cakes and good home cooked food, friends from the neighborhood...

age 7 - 14 : well... i cant remember, but for sure i din have any kind of celebration hence i settle with the fact that birthday is just another normal day. family also went through rough patches, so who on earth bother bout birthday eh?

age 15 - 17 : i was in malaysia, living in hostel. it wasnt always a grand birthday but being with my friends and their effort to make my birthday special is everything. its kind of survival thingy we did so that we can stay positive in negative environment hahahaha was my hostel that bad?

age 18 - 20 : i was in inti... birthday was normal with my friends but i was a happy girl too..

age 21 - 24 : i think these 4 years was the best birthday i ever had.... hahahaha... i am a happy girl....

age 25 .......... wahahahahah.. i dunno what to say but i am blessed still but there is something that make this year bday different...

what i got: a lot lot of panda cookies, godiva chocolate, Christian Audigier shirt, angpao, a bag, and a lot more to come la to those who already promised to give me a present hahahaha...

aniwei.... now that i am sick... kinda sick..... i need to lie down more... hahaha.. and watch my DVD...

i miss all my friends in malaysia... boooooo

i miss my best friends in sg....

i miss my CG members....

and i miss Jesus too...


ciaozz~~

do u miss me??

oh well.. you once wise man says when we are stuck in some unfortunate events, just make opportunities out of it... dont need to guess who the wise man is, but i think its true enough for my situation now... i am now doing a job that i dun like and it seems that i will stuck here pretty long or worst still i cant get out of this job ever.. but now, i think i will just make good opportunities out of it, learn to love my job and do something that will impact my life and ppl around me!

i am not happy and so desperate but i cant stay in that kind of state forever, aint i?

anihow... i think i just have an idea but this idea have to be done slowly.. very slow.. why? because i need to gather support! i need to do site survey...

i am on diet...

i bought a dress last saturday and me loving it! hehe...

i will get married next year, i will get married next year, i will get married next year *keep on chanting*

oh yeah, did i tell u that i am now 25? hahaha did i tell u that my birthday is very very soon??????? hahahaahahhaha please donate to my tabung ok in order for me to buy a coach bag and 99.9 Gold? hahaha... pretty please?

oh ya... yesterday i watched, wait its rewatched, House season 3, so in one of its episodes,there is this couple that turn out to be half brother and sister.. how scary is that? with the current rate, i think in the future it can actually happen.. why i say so?

nowadays, a lot of ppl got married and got divorce multiple times, they have kids with different spouses, and the next generation might not know that they are related unless they keep in touch after they got divorce...

and not only that, what about those sleeping around?

well... this society is getting chaotic..

ok anihow... i am getting a very low paid here.. booooo....

oh btw.. since now DVDs here are very cheap, i've been buying load of DVDs... hahahaha i can be a DVD seller...

ok thts bout me...


ciaozz~~

good morning!!!!!!!!!!!!

well you know what? i think i am really doing some stupid things such as revisiting the past... well... and u know its not the kind of good past... and you know by now that revisiting past is never a good idea regardless of what it is in the past. But i dunno why i keep on revisiting that place.. sigh... actually, ystd i had the chance to let go but i think the foolish me just refused to do so... haih.... what should i do?

well on the other hand.. job has been good... tiring tho.. working 6 days a week... but i begin to find joy la in what i do...

well to be honest i do miss life in malaysia...

i think now i am being selfish and childish...

its hard to find God here... sigh... its like...... i dunno.... i need time to re-adjust to everything... i feel my inner man is getting weaker day by day and it scares me... :(

*slap slap*

be strong ar....

o-hai-yo

wah since i stopped from my previous work hor, i've not been blogging that actively... indeed i've been died-ed.. .wah double past tense.. so strong sia..

aniwei now im happily at indonesia... not so happy la.... forced myself to be happy everyday to spend my day wisely here...

to find love here, to find hope here, to find success here...

well living with parents after 11 years of living alone is not easy.. first to actually listen to over-flowing-nagging every second (yes every second i tell u) is tiring... more tiring than waiting for someone that i HATE so much u know? and then hor... secondly, to always been asked to do this and to do that.. u say tired or not? this kind of lifestyle i seriously not used to it..

ok aniwei.. i need to stop la... i dunno what to write...

btw i have an idea eh no actually 2 ideas for business..so now keeping my fingers crossed...


ciaoz~~

yay today is my last day of working.. So the happy.. Well anihow, i do hope i end my job here well hahaha.. Landed a freelance project.. Keeping my fingers crossed hahaha..

Btw.. I think chinese is very typical ard the world.. 1st chinese trust their relatives the most tho sometimes it brings many disadvantages.. 2nd chinese is very cautious till the point of being paranoid! Tht is why we dont see (nt many, in my defence) successful chinese tycoon wrote a book on hw to b like them.. 3rd chinese dont praise ur achievement openly bt do trash u openly whn u failed them! Seriously! Lest the chinese society tht i knwn has changed, then these points are deemed to b true..

Erm im gonna miss 1u starbucks i guess.. Hehe.. It serves the best caramel machiato in kl so far..

Ok i gt customer.. Bye

when was the last time i blog? lllooooooooooonggg time ago.... eon time ago...

well....

i am still alive..pretty much alive...



ciaoz~~~

how hard it is to move house?
seriously i hate moving house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how i loath my night...

wht a day...

i lost the shop key, hence resulting in me cant close the shop and got stuck alone (ALONE) in 1U till about 11.15pm... it was scary ok.. imagine u r a girl alone in a closed shopping mall.. its kinda dark...

then... when i need help urgently, my friend's phone was out of coverage area, then another one was in midvalley watching movie and my boss, from all the ppl, din answer my call till about 1.5 hours later...

then, i got scolded! ok my fault coz i left the shop like tht (meaning i din lock it) but i tell u... i was so scared and its dark and i am girl alone.. i only have two options: the shop is save but my life at risk or the shop at risk but my life is save.. of course i choose the latter one... if my shop got break in i still can pay back but then if i got kidnapped or murdered or raped... who can give my mom another daugther just like me?... sigh.. what make me more demotivated to work is that my boss din try to understand my situation... i can see tht she only concerns bout her shop... sigh... i know la but still.. i am ur worker and u should show some concern for me somemore i am a freaking GIRL! and its not tht i din do anythign bout it.. i tried my best.. haih i dunno la.. i just feel wht i do is not worth it...

then... on my way back home i miss the turning to subang and went till shah alam to make a U-turn...

once i reach home, and eating my dinner (dinner not supper), my boss called me ask me to come to 1U to collect keys from her.. i mean actually she can open the door tomorrow.. but noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... she asked me to come! sigh boss is boss la....

then again i kena marah.. i tell u i dreading for tomorrow work! when i tired i am lazy but this time round i really no mood.. i keep on reminding myself that i am doing this for Jesus....

i think no use for me to justify myself... they will never understand how scared i am alone in the mall at nite... they will never understand how i am so scared of my safety and also the safety of the shop... and in the end i still apologize to them... tho i have all the right to keep silent..

sigh... i know i am justifying myself... i just dunno how to make myself so motivated to work again... sigh...

aniwei.. i just thank my dear esther and melinda for accompanying me to 1U and also... eng kim for trying to help me.. and gerald also for listening to all my rants.. *big wet eyes

well... well... i guess something to learn be careful and take good care of the KEYS and stay calm to find solution...

23 things about Yunny

23 things about Yunny:

1. i has my first stitches when i was about 3-4 years old... i fell down at theme park and a sharp glass cut deep into my chin.. i kinda remember it was a bloody afternoon for me... hahaha...

2. i had my first car accident when i was.. (no, the car accident nt the first).. when i was 3 years old... yesh! a car banged me.... i dunno why tht memory still very fresh in my mind till now... and i wasnt cry! and the amazing part is tht i din get any major injury... just a little scratch.. btw i was 3 years old and under weight (according to my pedetrician), i flew for about 3 -4 metres... but ta da... i am still in one piece.. hahaha... thank God

3. i used to be very fat when i was in junior high.. my pants size was 31 or 32... go imagine urself and imagine at ur own risk ok...

4. i am scared of dog.... yesh.... i cant read their mind and it scares me...

5. i am very proud of my teeth.. very very very proud... considering i din put much effort to take care of it... still i have a very nice set of teeth even better than my families all add up together and they brush their teeth religiously (u know like brushing their teeth for every hour like tht)... but dun get me wrong ok.. i still brush my teeth every single day i life just tht not so passion bout it la...

6. i cant sleep without reading first... i can read anything! just anything! give me a bottle of ketchup and i can read its ingredients just to make me sleep..

7. i cant differentiate left and right very well.. not cant la, i know what is left and what is right..but hor.. i got confused and i need a longer time to tell which one is one compare to normal person la... i have plenty of embrassing stories in this area but i too shy la to share.. just kindly email me hehehe..

8. when i sleep, my feet must not be covered by the blanket.. else i cant sleep...

9. i am very fussy about my hair.. i am very very detail when it comes to my hair... and only one person so far can do my hair.. God forbid another person cut my hair.. i think thts one of the reason why i dun want to leave msia...

10. ppl say i am cute.. which i think i am now.. hahahaha what say u?

11. i dun drink milk but i eat cheese and yoghurt

12. i get cranky when i dun get enough sleep... and dun mess with me when i am cranky... last time i always have this PMS strike.. and once u press the wrong button.. u r dead meat...

13. i love soft toys.... i am 25 now and yet i still love soft toys.... hehehehe... i have a big luggage at my home in indo just to keep all my soft toys.. the only one i still looking for is original garfield soft toy.. i want the big size one... hahah i saw once few years back........................ but i din buy it now i regret!

14. i always wish i am 5cm shorter than my current height... i dun like being tall! not tht i am tall la.. i still short but not short enough for my standard... hahahaha... i am serious...

15. i am music idiot... seriously.. when it comes to music... i have zero knowledge and i just dun have the talent... but i love singing... i kinda proud with my voice tho i always sing out of tunes... hehe..

16. i dated two of my lecturers bfore.. for a very brief period of time.. hahaha... but they go after me first ok... hahahahaha... now tht i think of it.. i think old guys have something with me... why oh why? is it because i am cute? hahaha

17. my first kiss is when i was 16 years old... hahahahaha it was so sweet and my whole face turned red...

18. got one time, my friends and i went to our lecture house and we shouted his name then we left.. i dunno why we did tht... we love him u know.. hahaha he is the best lecturer i ever had...

19. seriously... i dunno wht else.. let me think..... oh..... i know.... i love to window shop at home appliances section... all the plates, bowls, spoons, cooker, etc etc just fascinate me...

20. i hate make up... i always turn like clown whenever i put on make up on big occassion... serously.... even for my big bro wedding.. i was so ugly... i feel so old when i put make up...

21. i am not talented at playing games.. any games... the easiest level of mario bros game took me like 4-5 times of playing before completing the level... hence u will never see me playing games.. except when i am too bored

22. i hate when ppl adjust the seats on my car.... esp the driver and passenger seat.. they have to be in line one ok....

23. i scared of lizard... other than dog this is the 2nd animal i scared of... ermm i used to have bad dreams bout lizard when i was in high school.. i can kill cocroaches but one tiny lizard can make me numb... i hate lizard... ugh! so geli...

there 23 things bout me hahahahah i am just bored...

polygami what?

poligamy what? i tell u... i think i still cant accept the whole concept of polygami... i mean... it doesnt make anysense to me and it never will...

any woman and man in their right mint wouldnt want their love to be shared... come on??? i never can accept the fact tht my husband sleeping with another woman tho its legal by law... i cant! i will lose the most basic element of every relationship : TRUST....

if my man claim to love me, then he wouldnt have the idea to marry another woman, would he?

and come on.... the saying tht as long as u can be fair to all ur wives in term of love and finance then its alright to have many wives... i say this is the most absurd theory... why?
1. u cant and never cant to give ur love equally coz you are not GOd!

cheh, sure u will lean forward to either one of ur wives or husbands (i am speaking of polygami in context for both man and woman)...

even a mother will favour one of his children more than another... but still a mother will love all her children la.. just tht sure she has one tht is her favourite among all!

so... see, a mothers's love can be said is the most unconditional one... so hor... if a mother can be a bit bias, what more us????? so.. hor... polygami is stupid idea for me! if u are a hardcore pro-polygami, i tell u... ask urself this: why would u consider polygami at first? isnt it because u know tht u can love both of ur partners equally or just because u just lust for something new? and u justify ur own answer.. i am nobody to judge anyone...

well.... for me... marriage is something sacred... only can be shared by 2 ppl...

so.. i am saying now to polygami! period.

i am scared.... ><

in the shop rite now.. my colleageu having a bad now, she has not been talking since morning and her face is reallllyyy loonnnngggg fyi... i am so scared rite now.. i mean i dun like this kind of situation and i dunno what made her so the unhappy now.. its like i am living with a time bomb tht ready to explode anytime... just hope i dun trigger her emotion only.. its weird, if she argue with her bf usually she will pull her long face but not till the point till she doesnt want to talk and just trying to get herself busy.. i tell u... it must have been some big big big argue... is she having cold war? i dunno la... ahahahahah i am so scared now... God, take away her anger please.... *big wet eyes

aniwei... my loving leader, shirley boon is getting married real soon.. i am so excited for them... hehehe.. i mean, i love weddings and this time is doubly special.. coz the bride is someone so special in my heart... wah! i cant wait for her big day... well when is mine? hahahaha seriously.... i think hor... i think la.... i only think ok..... think only la ok... hehehe.. i think i really really cant wait to walk down the aisle myself.. when will my turn come? hehehe... i hope i dun freak the guys out la... but hey i mean... its my little dream mah hahahahaha....

well..... i think rite now i really dun feel like talking to my mom la... its like.. whenever she calls me she always nag me.. ugh i have enough of it already... please some please... help me would ya? haha get me a job with high pay... hahahaha

seriously i am scared now... huhuhu... i hope after i have my lunch her mood is better... ish!

oh ya.. i bought 4 DVDs yesterday, which according to felix, i shouldnt buy anymore coz i have been watching DVDs too much... i cant believe his memory is so good, the last time i tell him i wanna buy DVD is like looooooooooong looooooooooong time ago!
they always say girls remember but now i think guys remember too! or mb he is abnormal afterall.. hahahahahaha jk jk jk..

ermm i bought slumdog millionaire.. i cant wait to watch it... hehe

well oh well... i just came to realization how much relationship can affect one's life.. seriously... when we are single, all we need to care is just oruselves and tht what others do is not really matter to us.. as a matter of fact, we cant even be more careless... sometimes single ppl is more happy, more easy going and more relax.. however............................................................ when we got attached.... its like... u know... u r worrying when your other half din call u, or when your other half has gone somewhere without telling you... u r worrying when you make ur other half up set... and the list goes on... esp when you and your other half is not matured enough to start a relationship at the first place...

sometimes attached ppl can get emotional, can get so obsessive and possesive... u r overly jealous.. and become irrational... (hey, its true ok at some point... ) its like.. u stalk ur other half's facebook account, checking out all her/his contacts and get mad when you found someone more pretty or handsome than you... wahahahaha.. i mean.. yeah yeah u r in a relationship but doesnt mean ur other half cant have friends of the opposite sex...

then... u begin to stalk his/her phone, reading through their messages like u r some sort of cencorship department... i tell u... how ridicilous can it get? it can get reaaalllllyyyy silly... (its again true based on true account of my life)

so... better check la if u r having a healthy relationship or not... dont la just because u r in a relationship then u trying to be a dictator over ur other half life.. give a break would ya?

oh and oh... and.. when u and ur other half having big fight.. please please please dun bring ur friends go down as well ok.. like pulling a very longggg face... as if the world is just yours.. i mean.. hey... i know you r angry (i dun care whether u have the right to angry or not) but dont spoilt the atmosphere around ok? a smile wouldnt hurt you....

ok la... i better stop writing bfore i rant again... hahahaha if u realize it.. i actaually getting very scared again.. hahaha she is still still still having a very long faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... seriously she needs face lift i guess... (its a joke) hahaha how lame?????

signig off~~

Muttons At Midnight - Valentines Day version

please GOd...

dont entertaint the evil thought u have... get rid of it right away... i tell u the more u entertaint it.. the stronger it gets.. thts what happened to me last nite... i shudder to the tought of it... forgive me Lord! i am wrongggg.. very wrong...

anihow.. i keeping my finger cross.. i need a job... LOrd i pray hard.. please give me a job.. give the job at KLIA... i ask in Jesus name... amen!

Lord.. i am so sorry for yesterday nite and the nite bfore yesterday... i am so sorry.. its beyond word...

i repent. period.

signing off...

please for me... i need the job.. pray i get the job at KLIA.. i pray for Your favor Lord...

against all odd...

i just came back from sunway pyramid watched curious case of benjamin button... to be honest... its a good movie.. it has great story however it got too boring in the middle of the movie because it is just too draggy in the middle of the movie.. however, brad pitt's charm has saved the day... ha ha ha....

i cant remember when was the last time i catch brad pitt's movie...

ok back to the main point, today i am not talking bout brad pitt's hot bod... we gonna talk bout benjamin button...

i think all his life he kinda lost, he din know why he was born that way, and how his life treating him... when he was young, he was trapped in old body and people din understand him... and when he grows old (his body getting younger and he appears hot)he found that he cant stay together with the only woman he ever trully loves... he cant even see his daughter growing old as he knows that his body will continue getting younger as time goes by...

but however this movie has shown me that in the world there are still people with good heart... benjamin's mama is the best example..even when she has her own daughter, she still loves benjamin as the way it was before...

i reckon u guys to watch it but get ready to feel a bit sleepy hehe... :)

well... i think, now i am as lost as benjamin button... darn, at least he has a button factory to support him... me? hahahaha... i have Jesus! yes! i win!

do keep me in ur prayer.. i need prayer than anything else... tho mph voucher would help... i bought the worst book in my lifetime .. or mb i was too tired whenever i read the book...

so how was ur valentine's day? i spend mine working till 10.30pm like tht, got stuck in the parking lot and almost bang another car on my way out from 1u... u tell me? is it good or what? hehehe...

oh and oh... who has anti virus?

go and watch slumdog millionaire kay? its good movie.. i am going to watch it too next week...

and i might be going back to indo for like 2 weeks next month... keeping my fingers cross... hopefully i got a job la!

where am i suppose to start? or end? or go? or walk? or stand?

ish.... i dunno whether i am sad or not... hahahahahhahha but well.. my life has been quite a roller coaster itself...

my life not improving... my family not around me... stuck in the crossroad of my life... not knowing where to go.... not being able to get assurance... i think i just get more confused... :( i need someone to cry with.....sigh....

i know so emo rite? but pardon me la.... seriously.. i laugh my day away... but inside i am so the confuse till the fact that i found it hard to breathe at nite and i kinda runaway now... :(

sigh.... le sigh.... God... i just need to assurance..... i seriously confuse.... sigh..... mommy.... mommy.... i wanna cry!

*slap slap*

pull yourself together yunny!

the misterious case of Puteri Lilin's love life

ah i hate packing! i hate to unpack! i hate anything deals with moving house! but the irony is that i've been moving house countless of times in the span of 4 years time... darn! why did i do that? why why why?

and just so u know, my life is not any better too.. with all the weird guys gravitated towards me.. i mean, i dunno they like me or just stare at me because i am that cute.. if they like me, come and give me some free food la... dun just stare at me then smile eerie-ly that freak me out.... see i dunno whats going on in their mind... i never know and i dun wanna know... hehe...

ok i will list to u the weird guys around me (there are 4 so far):
1. the weird uncle from the D'Quartz crystal shop
he is this uncle in his early 30s... whenever he passes by my shop, he will stare at us (i say us because i dunno and i am in denial, tho my colleagues say he looks at me)... and sometimes (well, most of the times) he smiles eerie-ly.... while looking at us... scary... he's not ugly or what, but the way he looks at us made him so freaky and scares me out to my very core... and..... i am wondering, does he brush his teeth daily? ahahah get wht i mean?


2. the myanmar guy from the magz shop where i buy my drinks and papers daily
ok.... here is another guy.... he doesnt speak good BM but at least i could understand him la... at first hor, i din notice it la till my colleague told me bout the way he looks at girls.... then i dunno when it started, he began to try to communicate to me.... wait... flirt i might say since thts what he's been doing (tho i deemed him failed big time in flirting 101 lesson)... he will like dun want to give my drinks or papers, he will looks at me and smile (again eerie-ly) when i browse through the magz, and he will talk to me (ask me where i come from, ask me to always come to find him and so on and so on)....i got so scared because whenever i come he always stares at me... even when i come with my friend.. got one day, when i come, me and my friend was looking at the magz section, then he looked at us (again us because i am in denial) and then purposely arranging the magz at the section where we read for free... ish, from so many rack why he choose ours? and he must stand so close to us meh??? i get very uncomfortable! see see see.....aaahhh no!!!!!!!!!!111

3. the guard no. 1 from ridzuan where i stay (no. 1 because there is no. 2)
ok.... see, i got into argument with this guard earlier because i lost my access card and he wouldnt let me in... (but of course i won la)... so since then he got to know my existance and he is quite nice to me (never find problem with me and always let me in later on) and i also being treated well, i always thank him and flash him my USD1 Mil smile.... i always come back home past 10pm due to my work and he, most of the times, works at night shift so the chance i bump to him is high enough... so one fine night, i came back home late, he was there, so i just smile at him la... then when i about to enter the lift, his friend came and asked from my phone number... i was shocked, he said it is for his friend and i knw which one already.... he kept on asking and wouldnt let me in to the lift.. so i gave in lo... and he called me... i din picked up... first i scared.. second,what to talk to? i mean.... seriously.... what to talk to? then he sms-es me asked me why dont want to pick up his calls..... from then on... i got scared to enter to my own condominium... ish... why oh why??


4. guard no. 2 from ridzuan
this is new one lo... today he kept on ask me things and smile eerie-ly to me... i dun understand what he was saying as his BM is so awful... goodness..... want to flirt also learn some proper BM or english or as matter of fact the language that i understand la... ish .. i blame guard no. 1 for this to happen!

ok so thats my pathetic love life.. .hahahahahaha... i am so sad... please come la my prince of charming that ride in BMW 6 series...

ermmm... aniwei.... its either i perasan or all the 4 guys i mentioned are pure got nothing to do but to disturb me... or they really think i am cute hahahah what say u?

aniwei....... tomorrow is cap go meh! its the last day of cny...

and.... i am FAT now hahaha...

i just got my fringe trimmed.... ehehehe

and.... what is ur plan for valentine? mine is to sleep.. yeah thts it...

oh and oh... by day i am Puteri Lilin now for the fact that i melt under extreme heat... hehe

signing off~~

why is that so?

my mom, my aunt and my 3rd aunt are at my home karaoke-ing...

ok ok ok......

today i have serious issue to talk to.. before i forget it altogether..

ok... as u all know, as the world know, i have this colleague that of the other race of mine... so it happens to me that she lead a free-modernize-lifestyle... i, of course, have no objection or whatsover as i used to lead a life like her... pretty much la...

so whats wrong then? well.. .as i opened my eyes big enough (well my eyes are big already) and my ears wide enough.. to my not so surprise mind, i found out tht many of her friends and many of my newly found friend have almost the same lifestyle... and also, i learn that many ppl from the middle class and lower class (i am referring to financial status here) actually stuck in this kind of lifestyle (please emphasize the word "stuck" i used here)..

why i stay stuck? ermmm....at first i tot they are to blame as to choose to lead tht kind of lifestyle..but then again, as i think deep enough, i realize some of them actually stuck in tht kind of situation..they were born in a family that cant support them a good education background and they live in a community where that kind of lifestyle is practiced... hence, they grown up thinking that that is the correct lifestyle or that is they should live their lives.

they, obviously, have the right to choose to life a better (like what a lot of charities done, which some of them are plain liars... i will go into tht matters some other time).. we must start with education to the young ones... the young ones that still can be molded so that the next generation of these people can have breakthrough in their lives...

education is still the way out of poverty.. not only poverty in finance but also poverty in knowledge...

so friends, before we judge the unfortunate ones, why dont we take a second and think again...

this is just my 2cents... different ppl have different ways of seeing the world and its problem... but we need to unite and make the world a better place to stay... wah why i sound so like an activist?

nitez~~

happy chinese new year

ho ho ho ho... eh wait thts for christmas... wrong laughter..

..............

ermmm i dunno hows cny laughter sound....

well whatever..

Happy Chinese New Year you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back at home, eating good food, so many cookies and cakes.. yummy!! my weight has been alarming me... but heck i dun care... how long can i stay and have home cook meal this time round?? not much! hahaha...

have a prosperous year you all and be of good faith!

muach~~~

MPH voucher please...

it must have been the most worth RM51.30 i've ever spent on book. Since i was early for my flight, i bought ths book 'life on the refrigirator door' ( i knw i hv a gig for weird things). Its abt mom n daughter tht communicate thru messages they posted on the fridge door.. How the express their feeling thru ups n downs. Its simple yet the author manage to stir the emotions.. I was literally crying.. If nt because im at starbucks nw i would hv cry the ass off.. Aniway this book is good

Other book i got is 'how starbucks saved my life' (ok i admit nw tht im a hard core fan of starbucks). Its also simple, but its so inspiring and real tht i cant wait to share the good thing with the lucky person, do refer to my prev post hehe..

Today's journey to klia was great n fun, so much laughter.. Hahahaha.. Guess im lucky enough to hv elder yew to send me off.. Ok bro, i owe u a lifetime kindness as he forced me to admit it.. Thank u.. I shall write it on the tablets so tht my generation will repay ur kindness.. Haha happy nt?

Erm after being so bz, to b able to gobble up 2 books in 2 days really satisfy my soul.. My inner intelligent soul muahahaha.. Its amazing! So for this year bday, easter, n xmas all i want is mph vouchers.. Please please please! Hahaha..

Ok.. Im onlining with digi wap service tht cause me a bomb.. Haha.. Muah muah

Happie chinese new year to u all!

o-hai!

ermmm... good things are to be shared... and this time i have decided who is the lucky person i want to share the good thing i just got today :D.... i hope it'd be a good one that he can appreciate :D

ok aniwayyy... i have tried to post a comment on a blog that has been very famous nowadays due to its controversial stylo mylo... and to my amazement... whoever post something on the blog be it against the writer or being neutral is deemed to be anti-the-writer... amazing i tell u.. hahaha.. well i feel a bit stupid after i post the comment tho...stupid because i actually waste my time.. hahaha... anihow... why i post the comment is because i just feel that the blog has no purpose.. thts all.. other than bashing the victim mentioned (should i say victim? since all the readers there said that the so called victim deserved it.. i hope i dun get u all confuse haha)... seriously........ think bout it... in the beginning, the writer said that he/she wanted Mr.A (this is the person that being bashed by the writer, i shall call him Mr.A from now) to acknowledge his wrong doings and do something bout all the wrong doings... something like admit it, apologizing and bla bla bla... so u see rite... everyone with their sane mind will think that the writer actually wants Mr.A to change for the good or at least trying to get Mr.A to apologize and then change the way Mr.A writes on Mr.A's blog yada yada yada...

so so so...... after so long, the blog become something like joke parade and the best part is that the writer get into some sort of hatred-development that kind of serious i might say...

so so so.... i commented something like this: "it is no purpose of doing this bla bla bla. if you want Mr.A to change or disappear or you want to punish Mr.A why dont u hack Mr.A blog and make him disappear from the blogosphere... "

so so so... few ppl replied that i am stupid and i am actually another stupid fan of Mr.A..... haahahahhahahahaahhahahahahaahahah seriously... i am laughing my ass off...

welll....... i am just being an engineer.. i am trained to do something with effectiveness... arent we monashians out there? hia...

well on the other hand.... i am going back home in hours time... food glorious food here i come..


i hope i dun get u guys confused ah... with my beautipul english.... hiaaaa


nitez~~

am i asking too much for a girl? hahahahahaha... i just want to settle down. period.

He and His Big Mouth...

there is one major thing i dislike (i think hate is more proper word to describe how i feel) from Man U is their manager, Sir Alex Ferguson! i hate him! i mean... cant he just admit that liverpool is at their best form this season? cant he? i stumbled upon a news on few days back star paper, he said that liverpool not gonna win the EPL title, yada yada, he said that Man U and arsenal (or was it chelsea) have a mess schedule (yeah rite?) that they have to play back to back.. oh come on.. grow up will ya? i dun hear you saying anything when u have a great schedule.. i mean... this is life... this is competition.. u cant expect to have the best of everything, can u? sometimes u just got a bad schedule... not that liverpool made you to have tht kind of schedule... not that liverpool bribe someone to have good schedule... ptuiii! get over it la! pttuiiii!!!!!!! somemore said liverpool doesnt have what it takes to win the EPL... ptttuiiii u! i think i can like Man U better when he resign.. he and his alter ego and his big mouth... ptttuiii...

hahahahahahhahahaha..and guess what? chinese new year is coming.. i am happy.. i can go back home and eat home cooked meal... i miss it so much! i want to eat so many things, i will stuffed myself in 6 days hahaha...

ermmm..... today i dunno why, the first person came to my mind when i woke up this morning was my ex-bf (dont ask me which one haha)... sigh... i dunno why... i miss him ler now...

ermm...... anyone know any rehab to cure addiction to caffeine? hehehe...

ermmmmmm......... thts all la... hahahahahahahahahaha i just want to write my hatred towards Man U.. eh no no... but Sir Alex Ferguson (at least i still call him "sir")

nitezz~~

alot of times i ask myself.... why do i stay? and alot of times i cant figure out the answer... i have answers but im not sure if thts the right answer..

i dunno la!


flu bugs go away!

happy new year all! Hehe.. Been quite sometimes i've gone frm the world..

Ok.. Usually i always do my wish list.. This year i only hv one major wish.. Ahem.. Dun laugh at me kay? Ok? Promise? I want to settle down.. Serious! Haha.. The rest i leave it to u to judge.. Hehe..

Erm.. Btw.. I think its funny hw a guy can change so fast.. First he say nice things to u the next thing u knw, he's gone with the wind leaving u hanging.. Sigh.. This a tale bout someone i knw.. Ah.. The irony of life..

Erm..ok la.. Nitez